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hidden addiction

2008-07-10T12:11:00.004+08:00

ewan ko ba, pero excited talaga ko..just receive a really good news today..it's frustrating that i could not share it to anyone..i don't like to be misjudged, so i'm keeping it to myself..pero kelangan lang ng record sa blog na 'to..so, well..

driving with nestor dolor

2007-12-03T17:59:00.000+08:00

last friday 1-3pm was my first driving session..yup, after so many pilitan moments, finally lexel was able to convince me to study how to drive..nakow, dahil sa business na sinisimulan, kelangan ko na talaga, kasi madaming oras masasayang if forever akong maghihintay na ipagdrive ako ng asawa ko..

anywaste, sa isang jologs na driving school lang ako nag-enroll..mahal sa A1 tapos wala naman plaris na malapit sa house. unfortunately, ang pinakamalapit na socialites samen eh yung alabang zapote branch na..sus! so ihahatid at susunduin pa ko ni lexel para lang maka-attend ng driving sessions ko! pwes, dun na sa pinakamalapit..

well, sa loob ng 4 na oras eh medyo marunong na naman ako..nakakadrive na ko sa light traffic..nakakamanuever, backing and a little parking na rin..lexel is teaching me din, kapag nagda-drive sha, pinapakita nya sakin how to properly do it..ayaw nya ko assist magdrive ngayon hanngat di ko pa daw natatapos talaga yung lessons ko..mahirap na, pag naaksidente kame, ulilang lubos si ckheil, wag naman..

sabi nya, pag natuto na daw ako magdrive, at ok ako in 6 months time, he'll buy me a car..unang car namen yun just in case, kasi yung gamit naman namen ngayon eh sa dad nya, pahiram lang samen..

we'll yun talaga nakapagconvince sakin to study driving - yung bagong kotse..whehehe!

sunday play time

2007-11-12T08:02:00.001+08:00

our little robin

2007-11-12T07:59:00.001+08:00

halloween long weekend

2007-11-05T07:39:00.000+08:00

oct 31, wednesday
i already took a vl. goodluck na lang kung hindi dahil 2 cemeteries ang along sucat..sangkaterbang traffic at iinit lang ang ulo ko to death in case pumasok ako..

i spent the day with my sister..shopping galore kame..out na kasi this day ang sick leave conversion ko, so there's money to spend, so spend!

i bought gift stuffs for my officemates, complete na for the whole r&d and some kraft friends na rin sa ops..i was able to buy gifts na rin for my in laws..i got my sister a pair of brown skinny jeans..yun ang hiningi nya for xmas..

shempre pwede ba namang hindi ako bumili?!? i bought a knitted tops na with big stripes of black and gray, off-shouldered, really cool for the upcoming r&d christmas party..ewan ko di mashadong fit yun for the theme na 70's..whehe..pero yun ang isusuot ko, siguro jazz up ko ng konti para hindi naman ako mukhang out-of-place..iti-tiss ko na rin ang hair ko..whehehe..then shempre i bought a pair of skinny jeans..hindi sha black which will go very well sa knitted top na binili ko..pero maganda sha kaya go, bili!

nov 01, thursday
we didn't visit anyone sa sementeryo..ayaw ng mom ko na magpunta si ckheil dun dahil baka magkasakit na naman..so lex, me and ckheil just stayed at the house..nag CSI marathon kame..hassle nga lang yung season 7 na finale eh to be continued..hindi ko alam kung kulang lang ba yung cd namen or talagang putol sha..well..

nov 02, friday
shopping ulet! this time with mom..punta kameng divisoria..grabe mejo madame ng tao..sinama na rin naman yung yaya ni ckheil and maid namen..shempre they want to buy some things na iuuwi nila this christmas..

dun kme nakabili ng slide with matching swing ni ckheil..sa buong divisoria (i think, 2 malls pinuntahan namen dun), sa stall na yun lang namen nakita yung mga slides and swing na yun..so binili na namen..buti sumama si lex at may kotse kame..nung nabili na namen yung mga slides, umuwi na sila ni ckheil..hassle tlaga kelangan ko ng matutong magdrive..super enjoy naman talaga si ckheil sa mga bago nyang toys..

nacomplete ko na yung gifts for lex' relatives..mejo madame kasi sila..hehe..mejo complete na rin yung sa mga relatives ko, yung sa mga cousins ko na lang ang kulang..

shempre bumili na naman ako..whehehe..good finds ko dun yung not-so-expensive skinny jeans na ok naman ang workmanship (tignan na lang naten kung tumagal sha diba?!?)..meron din akong nakitang all in one shoulder bag..as in wallet na sha yet i still can put my cellphone in..liit lang nya, tuwang tuwa talaga ko!

pag balik namen sa house siguro mga 2 hours lang ako nagpahinga, nagpasama na si lex sa greenheights para pick-up namen yung printer and speakers..yun, saksakan pa rin pala ng traffic sa sucat, ang siguro may 1 hr kame sa sucat road..so nung dumadaan kame sa shopwise, nagdecide na kameng maggrocery muna..as much as possible ayokong maggrocery sa shopwise kasi 30% mahal sha kesa sa sm..pero pamapalipas ng traffic kaya sige, go 30%!

after nameng makapaggrocery parang himalang ang luwag ng traffic..pero pagdating namen ng greenheights, wala ng food..huhu, di pa kame nagdinner..nagtyaga tuloy kame sa corned beef na de lata..hehe..

nov 03, saturday
another all day at the house..general cleaning kame tapos pc games..yung mga family computer games as in mario and bomber man?!? hehe..yung mga yun ang trips namen nitong araw na to..ckheil wants to play kasi complicated sa kanya pa ang joystick..kaya nga ang choice namen for gift na bibigay sa kanya ni lola neena is LeapFrog Little Leaps Grow-with-Me Learning System

nov 04, sunday
after mass, punta kameng sm bacoor..dapat bili lang ako ng belt, paggupit si lex tapos manicure and pedicure kame ng sister ko..

kaso nung bibinili na ko ng belt, nadaaanan namen yung christmas decor section..eh di ba halloween is over na, so kelangan na nameng idecorate ang house! ayun, bili na kame ng tree (6 ft lang kasi hindi magkakasya sa house namen ang 7ft and up), decors etc..

tapos sale kaya nabili ko na rin ng fila running shoes si lex..pati shempre belt ko..

pag-uwi namen, nagdecorate kame kaagad..hehe..nakakaaliw..shempre orang ang motif..ang cool..post ko dito ang picture next time..

weddings

2007-10-26T16:05:00.000+08:00

hay naku, super likes ko talagang tumitingin ng mga pictures ng weddings..grabe..kinikilabutan ko every time..tapos ang sumasakto namang background music ko eh "you're always be beautiful" na revival ni christian baustista! ewan ko na lang!

like now, nakita ko sa friendster ni malu yung pictures nung wedding nila ni orland..sa calaruega tapos sa nature spa yung reception..astig..ganda..every time na nakakakita ko ng mga weddings, iniisip ko sana ganun ginawa ko sa wedding ko..whehehe..kaya gusto ko ulet magpakasal..

hehe..lexel promised me na sa 25th anniversary namen, kakasal daw kame ulet..and sa fernwood na talaga..wala na ksing sched dun nung kinasal kame..well, mga 2030 yun magaganap, so ilang taon na kame nun diba? 48 yrs, grabe! ok pa kaya ako sa gown dun..naku, hindi ako dapat tumanda na mataba..dapat mala-sandy andulong pa ko (you know, yung asawa ni cristopher de leon..whehehe)..

gusto ko talag ikasal ulet..gusto kong kumuha ng mas magaling na photographer and videographer..and though ok naman sila sarah and ian na hosts, kaso kasi hindi naman sila sanay maghost ng weddings..gusto ko yung professional host talaga..gusto ko ng magandang "this is how we fell in love" video..gusto ko ng video ng interviews ng mga friends namen, family to wish us well, gusto ko ng honeymoon sa europe..

hay..mangarap ng gising..after 10 years of marriage, ask ko si lex magpakasal..mas madame naman na shang pera that time..hehe!

Thank You Day by Toblerone

2007-10-24T07:45:00.000+08:00

The 1st National Thank You Day of the Philippines happened last 20 Oct 2007. And take note, ang initiator nito is Toblerone Marketing..yep! yep! as in they talked to Mayor Lim who is very supportive naman..launching happened the day before, 19 Oct 2007 here at Kraft. Shempre papahuli ba ang R&D sa celebration?!?

at gaby's 1st birthday party : shakey's malate

2007-10-22T07:58:00.000+08:00

asthmatic pneumonia

2007-10-19T07:30:00.000+08:00

nagkaron lang ng sipon ang yaya niya nung monday last week..wednesday night that week, sani nung yaya meron na din daw sipon si ckheil..

then come friday, a holiday, nagpunta kameng greenheights para kunin ang mga pasalubong samen from new york..laro lang si ckheil buong day sa house ng lolo nya with his cousin gaby, ma meron din sipon and that day eh ninenebulize na..come that late afternoon, we went to serenda para maglaro ang mga kids..before dinner, meron ng sinat si ckheil..

saturday morning tahimik lang si ckheil then me lagnat na ang inuubo na rin..we gave him paracetamol and ninebulize na rin ng ventolin..sunday, he's not any better..

monday morning, hintaid pa kame ni ckheil and his yaya sa labas ng village..mejo happy na sha..continue pa rin ang paracetamol and ventolin..

that night super pangit na talaga ng coughs ni ckheil..as in super dry na hirap na hirap sha to the point na parang magvovomit sha pero walang lumalabas..short ang breaths nya, fast..gusto ko na talagang itakbo kahit sa Medical Center Imus lang..kaso sabi ng mom ko, early the next morning na lang para sa pedia nya mismo..

so nitong tuesday, absent kameng dalawa ni lex..dinala namen sa Asian si ckheil around 10am..ang tamlay na talaga nya..tapos ang pangit talaga ng ubo nya..sabi ni daisy, yung secretary ni dra quibilan, meron daw 2 patients si dra na in-admit last week because of pneumonia..hay..

assessment from dra quibilan showde that ckheil is having asthmatic pneumonia..sabi nya monitor namen within the day..for his weight dapat maka36 oz sha of liquid intake..he's not expected to eat a lot dahil super maga nung tonsils nya na parang maliliit na pimples daw, signs of infection but not tonsilitits..full of phlegm na rin daw kaya 3 kinds of nebules ang pinapa-take sa kanya - combivent, budesonide + normal saline solution, and ventolin..meron pang antibiotic - augmentin..pag hindi sha naging ok until the next day, confine na daw..naku talaga..

thank God na lang at parang natakot sa confinement si ckheil..ok na sha nung nagpunta kame sa Asian kahapon..though nagcommute lang kame dahil pumasok si lex, kame lang ni mom ang nakaleave..umuubo pa rin pero hindi na short, fast breathing, hindi na rin kasing dry as the previous day yung cough..tapos wala ng fever..kaya hindi sha naconfine..continue lang ang medication for 7 days tapos balik s clinic for assessment on monday..

buti na lang at kahapon eh umuwi na si khaye..sem break na nya..so kampante akong mapapainom ng maayos ng medz at nanenebulize ng maayos si ckheil..

kaya ngayon, eto ko sa office..hay..

sana ok na si ckheil bukas..party ni gaby, 1st birthday..sana makaattend kame..

things i like to accomplish

2007-10-11T07:36:00.000+08:00

within this year
1. get a good food franchise and start smoothly
2. pay all installments due (ang gastos magkaroon ng bahay, sana ginawa ko na lang museum muna, as in walang laman, pictures lang at kame)
3. lose 3 inches around my waist (goodluck, hilig kumain, walang exercise!)
4. learn how to drive
5. get promoted

next year
1. buy our own car
2. acquire another food or service franchise
3. redesign our kitchen
4. get a new job (depende yan kung mapopromote ako this year, pag hindi, babu!)

in five years time
1. put up a resto grill
2. put up a spa
3. get pregnant again (wishing for a girl)
4. buy another car

in ten years time
1. buy another house (bigger than 100sqm, either at pque - gusto ko talag yung 6M worth na asa lopez sa greenheights or makati)
2. retire, focus on established business for the past 10 years

well, yun lang naman ang gusto ko..sana mangyari..

what if

2007-10-11T07:27:00.000+08:00

i don't know..pero siguro ako kung magkakaroon ako ng 10 children, lahat ng properties namen ni lex (as of this moment bahay lang namen and the business we're starting) eh will be divided equally..oo, kahit super liit lang nun, divided equally..like nung house, 100sqm lang yun, pag dinivide mo sa 10, eh di tig10sqm lang sila..goodluck kung magkapagpatayo sila ng bahay ng tig-iisa dun davah?!?!? so no questions, ibenta then hatiin sa kanila ang pinagbentahan..

if in case 1 son is has a million dollar business and 1 daughter married someone irresponsible at ngaun ay nakatira na lang sa ilalim ng tulay -- ganun pa rin..divided by 10 pa rin..kasi malamang naman equal din ang pagpapalaki sa kanila..lahat silang 10 pinag-aral..lahat sila pinangaralan kung papano mabuhay ng maayos..choice nila kung aayusin nila ang buhay nila or sisirain nila. Choice din nila kung gagamitin nila in the right way yung degree nila para yumaman or mabaon sa utang..accomplishment nung naging successful yung success nya..brought-about naman ng wrong decision nung nasa ilalim ng tulay yung situation nya..so napaka-unfair dun sa successful kung tatanggalan sha ng share sa properties ng magulang nya di ba?..

nasa kanilang magkakapatid na yun kung magtutulungan sila..kung ishe-share na lang nug successful yung part nya dun sa kapatid nyang taga-ilalim ng tulay..

but the parents must remain fair.. para matututo sa mga mistakes nila ang mga bata, and hindi laging aasa sa pagiging maawain ng parents..

ewan ko, ganun outlook ko eh..

PGMA's Kraft Visit

2007-09-26T09:49:00.000+08:00

Family Day

2007-09-24T13:17:00.000+08:00

Laki na ni Ckheil, fit na sa kanya Jordan outfit nya from Lola Neena..

Loinsmen Visit to Imus

2007-09-24T13:10:00.000+08:00

Aside from basketball, they taught Ckheil "muff" as in earmuffs - which, according to them, will come in handy one of these days..

Guaranteed, when Ckheil heard something loud, he'll do this gesture and say "muff"..

hi lex

2007-04-04T18:22:00.000+08:00

matagal-tagal na rin siguro since i opened by husband's friendster account..mga 2 months na nga siguro..ang boring naman kasi ng account niya, wala mashadong happenings..

until na-open ko sha ngayon..and me new message sha..

well yung new message nya actually eh nareceive ko rin..it's from leo, a friend from high school - nangangamusta..what caught my attention eh yung message below leo's message..it's from someone, na hindi ko na ime-mention..

message is dated 09 march..wow, almost a month na..

i'm glad to see you last time at greenbelt with your family. i know you got the best girl you deserve.. and your baby,wow!!! you're a good man, and you surely deserve all the blessings you've been recieving.

ayokong mamintas dahil baka naoverlook lang nya, minsan din naman naro-wrong spell ako..

i still remember that time na nakita nya kame..actually, nagsimba kame nun sa greenbelt bago yung family reunion namen with my relatives from canada..

nakasalubong namen sha and she said hi nga ke lexel..i just nodded at her..

tinanong ko pa si lex kung sino sha, pretending hindi ko na sha matandaan..pero, could i ever forget her? if lex would ever compare me with someone else, i will be always be compared to her..

we were never friends..i know her, malamang she knows me naman rin even before lexel..ni hindi kame nag-usap even once..

that day, that moment, i took a close stance at lex' reaction..wala, normal..ewan ko kung totoo ba yun or what..

a lot of times he told me na to stop myself from worrying about her or any other girl..kasi wala naman talaga..

ewan ko ba..nadadala ko sa bahay ang attitude ko sa trabaho..pro-active..hassle..

kahit sinong kilala si lex (matagal or hindi), sasabihin na he's not the type na manloloko..he's always serious, always reasonable..trabaho-house lang sha..hindi nga sha madalas sumama sa barkada nya..everytime na magbabasketball sha, sinasabi pa nya sakin ang time kung kelan magsta-start, mage-end, and what time sha makakauwi..lagi pa yung scheduled ha, nasabi na nya before..

ako nga lagi on-the-spot ang pagpapaalam eh..pero not even once na hindi nya ko pinayagan..madalas nga, sinusundo pa nya ko..

ewan ko ba..siguro nature lang talaga ng babae na magselos..kahit sino namang babae siguro na makakita ng message from a person who had been significant once-upon-a-time sa asawa mo, hindi ka ba mamove kahit konti???or siguro, ako humahanap lang ng spice sa relationship namen..would you believe na minsan nagco-come up lang ako ng something para mag-argue kame? baliw na kung baliw..

hay nahu..ang hilig ko kasing makinig sa mga stories ng mga mag-asawang at the verge of separation dahil lang sa third party, ayan tuloy, apektado na ko..

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well..nagresign na sa AET-Tech si lex..lilipat na sha sa AMI Semicon starting 24 April..from UP Dil, malilipat sha sa calamba..no need to worry naman ako kahit na lumipat na kame sa house namen sa imus dahil yung shuttle nila eh sa sucat ang pick-up so mahahatid pa rin nya ko..and since me shuttle, he doesn't need to drive na..hehe..tipid sa gas..

2007-02-11T12:15:00.000+08:00

i've been missing my friends..

i'm trying to set-up a get-together..but everybody knows that i don't do that stuff well..

2006-11-24T18:17:00.000+08:00

i'm currently at bangkok for 4 days now..i'm bound to go home tomorrow, flight schedule is 9:20am..why am i here? work-related..i had this flavor tech training at Mane Thailand and i'm doing this blog at their office..

this is my first time here at thailand..but i gone only to shopping centers such as suan-lum night bazaar and MBK..it's even a shame for not being able to shop at their wholesale weekend market they call as satuchak, i don't know if i spelled it corretly..i spend up until passed 6pm in the office and the only places i could go are those around..grand palace, temples, goodbye..such a hassle i wasn't able to visit the worth-picture taking places..shame..

shopping here is at all good..they said that the prices are low! ha! all the stuffs sold in MBK and suan-lum (except those souveneirs) are sold at divisoria! what's more, the price here are even more expensive..such a disappointmet!

all i'll be bringing home a native food stuffs as pasalubong and the knowledge from the training..

and i'm missing ckheil and lex soooo much! i'm eating breakfast and dinner here alone, with no one to talk to..i'm not used to eating by myself..reason why i was not able to eat well these past few days..good for me though..

i'm really excited to go home..and see ckheil and lex again..

in my opinion

2006-10-17T19:07:00.000+08:00

laki ako sa makati..patintero, putbol na pangkalye, agawang panyo, moro moro, sa kalsada ng osias..

preventive suspension was issued this morning to mayor binay..makati allegedly paid millions on ghost employees..

whatdaheck!

i grow up knowing that the city mayor's name is jojo, his real name was inspired by the Holy Family Jesus, Joseph, and Mary..school grounds and park are marked with "B" which means "Bayan"..and the city's motto is "Mahalin natin, Atin ito"..

ever since, my family is well affiliated with the city government..not that we're politicians (though i would very much wish we are)..it just gave, and still giving, my family a decent job when they did not find one.

i was five, and my sister was just three..it was campaign period we would remember for the rest of our lives..khaye had been the featured supporter of mayor binay..the ad goes asking her who's fit to be makati's mayor, she shouts "binay, binay!", with her on the mayor's shoulders..

i always believed that mayor binay is extremely intelligent..that he did not just ignore the warning about the suspension..i really believed that he had filed the stuffs he needs to, only he did not received what he needed to..

i don't know whether there really are ghost employees..how could i when there's no investigation yet..but still, my heart goes to mayor binay..maybe there's bias in any case..and maybe, somehow, the government must project stuffs that they are doing in a way not just political.

Us

2006-10-06T11:42:00.000+08:00

One fine day at Mall of Asia (kalbo pa si ckheil)

Our Safari Boy --- Ckheil at Conti's for his dad's 24th birthday

updates

2006-10-04T08:39:00.000+08:00

this is for tere - who's telling me she's been missing my posts..

came across my site and wanting to post yet when i was on the verge of writing, i've got nothing to really write about..ewan, so many stuffs running through my mind right now..daming ginagawa sa work

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speaking of work - got so much hassle preparing for the corporate audit a few weeks ago..daming documents left undone and since kame na lang ng boss ko here to handle spoonables, sino pa bang mangangarag tumapos ng docs other than me..

actually, i was near hating ICEL..for leaving kraft a month before the audit..and i couldn't say nothing but BASTIANES because she left me a handful of stuffs to do..no offense meant, i love icel and still wishing she's still here having wonderful and tonsils-out kind of conversations with her..kaso kasi naman of all the products that will be audited, bakit yung sa kanya pa?!?! hassle talaga..super..

at least it's over now..all other stuffs piled on my desk to be finished..plus added 3 more projects..hay buhay..buti na lang ang galing ko! haha! wala eh, confident!

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meanne is leaving for australia..honestly, naiirita ako sa kanya..whehehe..not in a bad sense ha, as in hilig ko lang talaga shang asarin..extremes kasi kame except for one thing - we're both competitive..hehe..

racqui is at mauricius right now..yung country ni babajie ba yun yung sa scam ng "take it! take it!"..whehehe..so many people leaving..

jerome will be staying at singapore, as din dun na based ang work nya..i'm happy for him, jerome naman kasi is really a career-guy..wonder kung me girlfriend nga talaga yung mokong na yun, na according to him eh lower batch than us sa masci..hehe..nakakatawa, after more than 3 years of being together with lexel, i still look out dito kay jerome..naku, yung mga intregera jan, na nakakaisip ng gumawa ng intriga, sorry, i don't mean it in a romantic sense..everyone knows i'm happily married..keeping an eye on jerome is just one way of making sure na okay sha 'no..that he gets someone he desrves, after all that had happened...

nga pala, lexel is leaving din by the 3rd week of October..off to Japan lang ulet, to assemble his stuffs and present it to his japanese bosses..sus! two weeks lang naman..pero sad pa rin..

thinking about it, ang dame ko ng friends na asa japan, yung iba kong officemates, off to somewhere around the globe na rin --- it just makes me wonder kung bakit i declined the offer made by kraft usa...simply because i'm not yet ready to work there and leave the country..

and up until now, i'm not yet ready...offer came for lexel to work at singapore..ayaw din naman nya talagang umalis..hay, pareho ata kameng bound here in the philippines as of this time..

well kasi naman, it'll be hard to leave when lex and i are both not ready yet..para naman yung suicide..i don't know when we'll be ready...we're starting this thing called family and the last thing we want to incorporate is something that will complicate things out...

in time, maybe in time, we'll be settling somewhere in US..ayoko sa Japan, communication chuvaness..

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super excited na ko sa house namen! nagstart na ang construction! yahooo!!! pero that means, start na ang sangkatutak na gastos..hehe..shempre we want pa a lot of things to add unto it before we transfer there...ayaw naman namen ng generic na bathroom stuffs that comes with the house kaya bumili pa kame ng tiles and bathroom needs na preferred namen, for the two bathrooms that we have..whehehe..tapos yung flooring pa, we're discussing pa kung anong gagawin dun..tapos shempre yung fencing and the dirty kitchen, dame pa talaga...tapos our house has only three rooms, and we decided that my mom and sister will be staying with us (sabi ni lexel, no one takes care of ckheil more than my mom does kaya mas kampante sha if my mom will be staying with us), kaya magpapagawa pa kame ng extra maid's room sa baba..grabe, just thinking about it makes me worry kung kaya ba talaga namen..whehehe..pero i've computed everything..lahat ng bonuses that we could ever have eh nakabudget na for our house..so shopping-restricted ako..hehehe..

we're planning to move out of lex's parents' house by may2007..sana maayos na talaga lahat by that time..mejo nakakahiya na rin kasi sa in-laws ko dahil shempre, ang dame na namen sa house plus pag weekends pa eh pumupunta dun mom ko, sis ko, pati si cheechai..hehe..mejo sumisikip na ang bahay..

pero super duper excited na talaga ko..to have a house of my own..whehe..samen pala ni lex, hindi sakin lang..pero as of now, save to death muna hanggang makamove in kame dun..

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ckheil is standing alone na sa crib nya..yey! at the middle of the night gumigising sha to play at dinadaganan nya kame ng dad nya, sinasabunutan pa ko..as in practice sha ng practice to crawl and stand..nakakawalk na sha when guided..tapos sore na yung upper gums nya sa part ng two front teeth nya..hehehe..malapit ng maging four ang teeth nya..

super daldal na nga eh..mana talaga sakin..pero pag nasa high chair nya sha, ang hilig nyang tumunganga..as in nakastare lang sha samin for a long time pag kumakain kame..weird din yung batang yun eh..mana talaga sakin..

ang dame ko na ngang utang dun eh..never finished his cross stitched photograph, pati yung baby book nya hindi ko pa naaayos..basta, sa long vacation leave ko sa christmas, i'll attend to those stuffs...promise talaga!

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so yun na lang muna as of now..my boss is out on a VL kaya lang ako nakafind ng time to do this stuff..whehehe..

2006-05-29T19:21:00.000+08:00

got tired of posting that's why this site was practically "dead" for almost 3 months..here are the stuffs that happened since mar10's post:

1. i'm back to work 13march. my china project is doing well and we're commercializing this weekend. grabe, iba pala yung feeling pag nakita mong nagmaterialize na yung isang stuff na super pinaghirapan mo..whehehe..as in cadet pa lang ako, owner na ko ng project na to (angas! haha!) ngayon, kahit dame pang hassle, ok lang, matatapos na..australia naman next..yey!

2. nakaaksidente si lexel 15march. sa c5, 7 years old na boy, kasama ang older sis nya na nagbabasura para me pang-arcade daw. the girl saw the l300 approaching, held back her brother pero nagpumiglas yung lalake at tumakbo. lex tried hard para iwasan, to the point na bumanga na sha sa center island, pero nahit pa rin yung kid..tumilapon..dinala sa ospital ng makati..he died..traumatic for lexel..pero ang sad, yung parents nung kid, mas interesado pa sa ibabayad sa kanila kesa dun sa life ng anak nila..buti na lang nakainsured yung l300 kaya yung nakuha sa insurance yung pinagbayad dun sa family..

3. ckheil was diagnosed to have umbilical granuloma 10april..there's this sort of mass sa pusod nya..hindi naman sha emergency pero we need to remove that through a general-anaesthesia operation. yun yung findings ng pedia-surgeon niya sa asian hospital. gusto ni lex pasecond opinion, which a right thing to do naman. we're going to try the one recommended by winnette.

4. gammy and winnette got married 20may..saya kasi kinasal sila sa st. mark's chapel (dun sa pinagshoot-an nung movie ni aga and regine sa isang movie nila)..ckheil become an instant darling sa mga relatives ni lex, hehe, magaling mangcharm ang baby namen, smile ng smile, tapos nagme-make face na paawa-effect..hehe..pero ang lakas din umiyak!

5. nagswimming na si ckheil this summer 21may and 27may..sa rockpoint hotel and sa sea breeze resort..hehe..kakatuwa kasi marunong sha magpagpag ng legs and arms niya unlike his mom.

6. hinulan ako ng manghuhula ni Ms Bella through my handwriting. Sabi sakin, i have a huge career opportunity sa US..hehe, John Topinka is that you?! haha! Tapos daw i'm in an unhappy marriage. UNHAPPY MARRIAGE?!?! huwaaaatttt gubat?! pinaulit ko nga kay king h..hehe..ilang beses kong inassess kung naging unhappy ba ko ever since kinasal kame..merong mga tampuhan pero hindi naman ako naging unhappy..hehe..dyos me, sa bait ba naman ng asawa ko, magiging unhappy pa ba ko? i admit madalas akong maasar sa kanya lately kasi ang kalat nya and medyo ang tamad magligpit ng gamit nya pero hindi naman unhappy. sinabi ko nga ke lex eh, para daw akong tange, naniniwala tapos isip pa ng isip..malamang daw kung magiging unhappy ang marriage namen dahil yung sa kakaisip ko about it..oo nga, me point..

videos

2006-03-08T08:30:00.000+08:00

i successfully uploaded some of ckheil's videos. you can now view it at the ETC section of this blog..hehe..nakakaaliw..i have to thank the site of dale (ate achee's son) ...dun ko kasi nalaman na pwede na mag-embed ng videos sa blog..hehe..astig..nag-uupload pa kame, sangkatutak kasi videos ni ckheil kaso sangkabagalan naman magverify ng google..it usually takes 2 days for a 30sec video to be verified..pero ok na rin, kasi maganda naman sa site..

new template

2006-03-06T13:20:00.000+08:00

i changed my template again..again..hehe..walang magawa dito sa house, inuubos ko na lang yung remaining days of my maternity leave..eto nga yung boss ko, nag-email na dahil positive yung sensory result ng china project namen, that gives us another set of deeds to do..hay..pero at least isang malaking check na yun sa MAP ko..

at the ETC section of this blog, you can take a view of some of my son's pictures..hehe..addict ang daddy nya kumuha eh, nag-uupload pa nga kame ng video, post ko dito pag naverify na..

2006-02-09T12:53:00.000+08:00

finally i was able to have a nice sleep yesterday. tito chito was able to find ckheil's yaya from cebu and her name is catherine. when she was introduced to lex and i yesterday morning, got shocked when i layed my eyes on her. she looked younger than lei (our house help, younger than leanne)..learned that she was only 18..shocks..but experienced daw kasi nakapagyaya na before sa isang new born din..

but actually, marunong nga shang mag-alaga..you could tell naman kasi sa way nya ng paghandle sa baby..kaso nga lang, hindi marunong magtagalog..hehe..nakakaintindi naman sha ng tagalog pero she finds it hard na magsalita..kaya laging tahimik dito..sabi nga ni daddy, matuto daw si ckheil ng bisaya..haha..i don't mind..pero shempre dapat primary language pa rin nya are english and tagalog..kaya lagi kong kinakausap..hehe..

it's check up days na naman tomorrow and on the saturday..at least tomorrow, hindi ko na kelangan pa-absent-in ang mom ko para dun kame sa kanya and maalagaan nya si ckheil habang asa doctor ako..ngayon, pwede ko ng iwanan dito si ckheil..makakabili pa ko ng gift namen for jed..

speaking of jed's birthday, gusto nameng pumunta..kaso hindi ko alam kung ok lang ba for ckheil to make halubilo with so many people when he hasn't completed her immunzations pa..siguro naman ok lang..kaso hassle kasi, madalas magtantrums si ckheil, baka ngumawa lang to death yun sa party..haha..sama na lang namen kaya si catherine..

2006-01-17T20:10:00.000+08:00

09Jan2006 6:30pm
I entered my boss' room saying i'm bound to go home and for her not to worry, i would report to the office the next day to finalize the BFAD documents that we need. Sinigurado pa nya talaga sakin na kaya ko pang pumasok..that time i felt i really could kahit na mejo nahihirapan na din ako lumakad.
09Jan2006 11:45pm
I told lexel that I'm having contractions..hehe..false alarm kame last sunday when we thought that my water bag broke ..my husband was so tired from the day's work kaya he just told me to monitor my contractions..grabe, tumatayo talaga ko sa pain..as in palakad-lakad ako sa room namen para lang mamellow down yung pain
Until my contractions lasted 30secs-1min for 10-15mins interval. the usual stuff naman na ginagawa pag masakit ang puson eh nagc-CR, para lang makaupo sa toilet bowl, naghihintay ng something na lalabas para maalis yung pain ..pero nagulat ako when i found something pinkish sa undies ko..then i texted dra aguilar..
she told me to go straight to medical city..
pause..teka, teka..me contractions nga ako, pero hindi pa naman ganung kafrequent..mejo masakit pero hindi pa naman ganung kasakit though hindi na ko makatulog..
ewan ko, kinabahan ko..natakot pumuntang hospital, hehe..i reasoned out pa sa doctor ko na walang mashadong pain..
she told me "don't rely on the pain..some preganant women don't experience it at all"..oh shocks..
texted her again.."could i take a bath first?"..haha, shempre, ayoko namang maging mabaho..haha..or kung maglalabor ako ng matagal, at least nakapaligo naman ako.."ok but proceed to the hospital immediately"..
when i woke my husband up and told him we have to rush to the hospital na, automatic na napatayo yung loko..hehe..direcho na kame pareho sa CR to take a bath, then pagkabihis, nagpaalam na sha sa parents nya..hinatid pa kame ni daddy sa labasan..sentra na lang dinala namen, wala atang gas yung L300 nung time na yun..still pingas pa rin naman namen yung sentra..
i told lexel na wag magmadali magdrive..siguro nagpapanic din yun deep inside, i need to calm him down na hindi naman agad agad ako manganganak..natatakot siguro yun na manganak ako sa loob ng car..kasi me tita daw sha sa cebu na nanganak sa jeep..
10Jan2006 2:00am
we reached medical city ortigas with 30minutes travel, kasi madaling araw..naghanap pa kame ng parking space sa basement, ayoko naman sa emergency magdaan kasi actually, hindi naman talaga ako emergency..nakakalakad pa naman ako..
when we entered the building, akala pa nga nung guard eh check up ko..hello?!? check up ng 2:00am? meron bang ganun? or siguro nga kasi hindi pa talaga ko mukhang manganganak..hehe..
we proceeded sa admission..i handed the admission slip na binigay ni doctora weeks ago..so dadalin na daw ako sa pre-labor room..sabi nung nurse, ihahatid na daw ako dun ni a wheelchair..ha? super nag-no ako kasi hello? kaya ko pang maglakad? hehe..pinayagan naman kame..
pagpanik namen, dun sa waiting area, me tatlong guys na nanonood ng tv..must be husbands and fututre dads..nakakatuwa..kasama ko pa si lex sa pre-labor room at first pero pinalabas din sha as soon as nakapagpalit na ko ng hospital gown..
i was interviewed. internal examination was conducted. contractions and baby's heart beat were monitored. i was asked where i live. sabi ko malapit lang, sa sucat..nagcomment yung intern, hindi daw malapit yun, malapit lang pag madaling araw..hehe..oo nga..
i heard the resident doctor called dr aguilar. conversation goes like "1-2cm 70%, minor contractions every 10minutes"
1-2cm..shocks, ang layo ko pa..for those who are unaware, 10cm ang opening bago lumabas ang baby..
ineexpect ko na na papauwiin pa kame dahil 1-2cm pa lang naman..and hindi pa naman ganung kasakit..but the resident doctor announced that dr aguilar recommended admission already..i would be transferred to the labor room na after makakuha ng blood sample..
i was shaved..shempre hindi naman ako sanay na bumubukaka sa harap ng ibang tao..it just felt so awkward..hehe..lalo na when the nurse asked me to turn to my right..hehe, she inserted something sa aking butt, hehe, para daw majebs ako ..para shang ini-spray na water sa loob, haha, ang lamig, pero off pa rin yung feeling..pero true enough, wala pa atang isang minute, bumababa na ko ng bed para magCR..and take note, yun ata yung pinakamadameng jebs na nailabas ko my whole life..grabe talaga..
and so i was transferred sa labor room..my cube number is 2..gusto ko sanang itext ang mom ko, para papuntahin na sha sa hospital..kaso na kay lexel na yung phone ko..and as of that time pala, battery empty na ko kasi 2 days na kong hindi nagcha-charge..wala namanh number ng mom ko si lex, kaya hindi rin nya matext..
baby's heartbeat and my contractions were monitored again..tapos nilagyan na ko ng IV..ewan ko na lang dun sa nurse na nagbabantay sakin, kumakanta ng "Para Sa 'Yo ang Laban na 'To"..yung kanta ni manny pacquiao..hanep..inisip ko pa that time kung saan ko narinig yung kantang yun..shet..
ang super nakakainis lang sa labor room, i was with other women who were in labor too..yung mga nasa stage ng labor na much more painful than mine..
super tili ng tili yung isang foreginer..as in tawa ng tawa yung mga nurse..ewan ko, kahit mejo in pain na ko from my contractions, tinanong ko pa rin what was happening to that shout-to-death girl dun sa mga attendants..sabi nila, nagplan pa nga daw yun magLa Maze..kaso hindi kinaya kaya tinurukan na rin ng anesthesia..sangkatutak na nga daw na anesthesia ang binigay dun pero sigaw pa rin ng sigaw..what's worst, german, hindi marunong mag-english..so dun sa delivery room, me kasama pa daw silang interpreter..hehe..kaso dahil natetense na rin yung interpreter, halos hindi rin matranslate yung mga instaructions nung doctor dun sa patient..hehe..natutulala pa nga daw..
tapos yung katabi ko naman, sa cube 3, super sigaw rin ng sigaw..as in napapamura na sha..pinatawag na yung anes para lagyan na daw sha ng anesthesia..5-6cm na kasi sha..kaya super sakit na daw nun sabi nung nurse ko..
honestly, dahil dun sa mga painful cries ng mga kasama ko sa labor room, natakot din talaga ko..i was in pain, pero dahil nakaretain sa mind ko na i was only 1-2cm as of my last IE, hindi pa talaga masakit yung nafifeel ko..sasakit pa to the point na baka mapamura din ako..whehehe..kaya mega tanong ako sa nurse kung hindi ba pwedeng papasukin na lang sa labor room si lexel..hindi daw pwede..shet..
in that cube, with just the nurse, naisip kong ako lang talaga that time..kahit naman mapapasok sa loob ng cube ko si lex, he could only do so much, yet andun pa rin yung pain..
i started to chill..as in super duper nanginginig..dahil yung intensity ng pain eh nag-iincrease..gusto kong tumayo, or even maglakad..i asked the nurse, she said it's not allowed..i asked the resident doctor..when she found out that 1-2cm pa lang ako, pinayagan nya ko..pero nanginig ulet ako, and nakita nung doctor..kaya binawi..baka daw matumba lang ako habang naglalakad, lagot naman daw sha..
so wala akong magagawa..kelangan kong tiisin ang pain habang nakahiga..
10Jan2006 6:00am
the resident doctor conducted an IE on me again..ineexpect ko, nagwiden na ang gap..i was on my second dose of that stuff na nagpapasoften ng cervix..so there must be some improvements..pero nothing..1-2cm pa rin ang dineclare nya..i heard her call dr aguilar and reported just that..shempre malamang hindi pa nagworry ang doctor ko..malamang inisip nun matagal pa ko..hay, after 4 hours, 1-2cm pa rin..pero masakit na..hassle..
change shift..so palit na rin ang nurse ko..and my new nurse is buntis din..she keeps on monitoring my contractions..sa kanya ko lang nasasabi yung frustrations ko about the pain of having contractions..sabi nya ganun talaga..hehe..ano pa bang pwede nyang sabihin diba? sabi nya i could ask my anes na lagyan na ko ng anesthesia..kaso yun nga, 1-2cm pa lang ako, super early pa daw nun..
yung nasa cube 3, tahimik na..tinurukan na kasi..but i heard her ask her nurse kung ok lang ba magpaturok ulet kasi nagsta-start na naman daw sumakit..hindi ba daw mawawala yung effect nung anesthesia kapag kelangan na nya talaga..hehe..sus..fears..shempre, yung dosing naman nung anesthesia, nililimit yun, hanggang ibigay yung full dose kapag manganganak na..so nothing to worry about..
super na yung pagchill ko..as in naaalog ko yung bed ko..paulit-ulit yung nurse ko ng "breathe through your mouth"..sus..super dry na nga yung throat ko..since pumasok ako ng hospital, hindi na ko nakainom ng water..buti na lang the resident doctor was kind enough to give me a sip..pero actually, hindi daw dapat..
dumating yung doctor nung asa cube 3..parang ang sungit, lalaki pa naman..sabi "mamayang gabi ka pa manganganak, makapal pa eh"..naisip ko, malamang mamayang gabi pa rin ako, kasi sha nga 5-6cm nung pinasok eh..
10Jan2006 8:00am
dr aguilar came in at last..she told me nga na baka mamayang gabi pa ko manganak..ngek..then she conducted an IE..nagulat sha dahil i was 5-6cm na daw, rounded..ang bilis from 1-2cm nung 6:00am..she told me, hindi na nya ko iaallow to eat, kasi she'll be back by 11am to have my baby delivered..i could have a late lunch na lang daw..naisip ko lang, WOW..
then on, paincrease na ng paincrease ang pain..my heart beat rate started to reach 100..dahil daw din dun sa ini-inject na pampasoften ng cervix..
10Jan2006 9:00am
i asked my nurse to call my anes..hindi ko na talaga kaya yung pain..hindi nakadating kagad kasi asa delivery room daw..shet..
but when he came, i felt some sort of relief..he asked me to move at the edge of the bed, curl up like cooked shrimp and stay in that position until the deed is over..
i remember i asked my nurse kung masakit ba yung epidural injection..sabi nya, mejo pero bearable naman..yet iniisip ko pa rin, masakit sha kasi somewhere in the spine sha ituturok..
my anes told me iinject na daw nya yung local anesthesia..para hindi ko daw mafeel yung injection ng epidural..felt the needle..then naramdaman ko na naman yung contractions ko..eh nanginginig nga ako kapag nagko-contract ako..eh hindi pwedeng gumalaw dahil critical injection ang gagawin, sa spine, ayoko namang mapaalyze noh!?..buti na lang me assistant na guy na dala yung anes, he held me still..and in fairness, hindi naman ako nakafeel ng pain from the injection..
shempre hindi naman magic yung anesthesia..hindi agad-agad yung effect..i felt a series of cold stuffs flowing in my spine..then nagmellow down na yung pain to the point na nakatulog ako..
10Jan2006 10:30am
nagising ako dahil sa pain..i-IE ulet ako..8cm..malapit na..super sakit that they've called my anes already..to give me my full anethesia..nginig to death ako..
they are training me na to push..they were commending me na super galing ko daw magpush..well, it comes with age, sabi nga ng nurse..
kahit me anesthesia na, super duper painful na..kasi daw the baby is going down na..kaya ganun..
10Jan2006 11:10am
dr aguilar came..conducted an IE..she said punta na kame sa delivery room..it's my time on the table..the nurses were already congratulating me..dahil nga daw in a few minutes, makikita ko na yung baby ko..
yung asa cube 3, naiwan pa..deep inside me, i felt proud..hindi pala ganung katagal ako naglabor..considering i arrived at the hospital ng 1-2cm pa lang, tapos after 9hrs, manganganak na ko..
dr aguilar told me that lexel was waiting outside, ready to see the baby..
sa table, inayos na nila yung sheets na magko-cover sa lower body ko..they asked me to push..3 successful pushes..then on the 4th sabi ni dr aguilar, habaan para lumabas na..something happened na hindi ko sha malabas ng maayos..they called the male resident to help push my tummy..after another 3 pushes, ckheil was out..and they started my repair..
sabi ng mommy ko, yung pinakamahirap na part ng pangangak yung pushing..masakit..super low ng tolerance ko sa pain..mareklamo ako..kahit konting ouch lang yan, sasabihin ko nang painful..pero thanks for the technology..wala talaga kong naramdamang pain..as in pag sinabi lang nilang push, push lang ng push..hehe..inhale, hold and push for 10 seconds..ganun lang..walang pain whatsoever..
after they've washed ckheil, pinakita na nila sakin..siguro dahil groge pa ko, hindi ko natanong kung anong weight..sus..basta naalala ko lang nung sinabi ni dr aguilar na 11:39am sha nadeliver..
i was transferred to recovery room..sabi dun, at least 2 hours daw ako magsta-stay dun..what?!gusto ko na matransfer sa room ko..gusto ko na makita asawa ko..somehow, parang that was the longest time i've beared not to be with him when i wanted so much to..
tulog lang ako ng tulog dun..pero hindi din naman makatulog ng maayos, naririnig ko yung mga usapan..
i've asked for water twice..dahil super dry na talaga ng throat ko..pero ewan ko, yung second na ininom ko, vinomit ko lang din..weird nga kasi parang hindi ko mapigil na lumabas na lang bigla..hassle..according to the nurse, ganun daw talaga kaya as much as possible hindi nila binibigyan ng anything sa recovery room..
10Jan2006 01:50pm
at last i was transferred to my room..at last i was together with lexel..somehow there's a feeling of security that now i'm with someone..i turned on my phone and luckily, nabuksan..
i've called my mom..walang sumasagot..sa office nya sabi wala sha, lumabas..i called my sister instead..buti na lang nakausap ko..super nagulat kasi nakapanganak na ko kagad..sa gulat nga, hindi natanong kung boy ba or girl..basta ang sinabi punta na lang daw sila..
i've texted my friends..yung mga magiging ninong and ninang ni ckheil..all are excited..shempre..
i've texted my boss and our secretary..para at least aware na sila why i didn't report that day..hehe..tumawag sila both..i apologized kasi wala pa kong ginagawa sa appraisal ko..wag ko daw munang iworry yun..

2006-01-03T18:49:00.000+08:00

i don't know what came into lex' mind when he started searching for houses. Actually, noon, ako yung super atat na magkaron ng house of our own..pero ewan ko, i sort of gave up the thought kasi naisip ko, mahal and hindi pa namen kayang bumili as of now..

good thing na lang talaga na tinamaan ng kung anuman ang asawa ko..he showed me some properties na kaya daw namen bilhin..shempre as the one in charged, tinawagan ko yung agent..

so we spent rizal day na nagha-house tripping..

these are the things we've learned:

1. You don't need to have a lump sum initial cash outlay as a down payment.

-yes. usually ngayon, allowed na na yung down payment eh payable in 12months.

2. There are different modes of payment

a. In-house : advantages are pwedeng 10% down payment, less document requirements compared to bank and pag-ibig. disadvantage : 17-18% interest per year, as in lugi..

b. Bank : advantage is pwedeng as low as 10% interest per year fixed for 10-15years so kayang kaya yung monthly amortization. disadvantage is dameng required documents + interview bago ka maapprove. but interview lang naman yun, parehas kameng engineers with stable jobs, so, chicken! hehe!

c. Pag-ibig : advantage is pwedeng 20years to pay..as in pag tagal, negligible na yung binabayad mo sa house, super gaang pa ng payment. disadvantage nga lang na dapat at least 2 years ka ng member and 70% lang ng contract price yung usually naaapprove.

3. You'll be approved only 40% of your income.

-so super advantage pag married ka, kasi combined income nyo..hehe, promise, pag single, hindi ka pa makakabili dahil kahit kaya mong magbigay ng 50% ng sweldo mo, never ka maapprove..

Hindi ko muna sasabihin yung location ng house na bibilhin namen, kasi hindi pa naman namen yung matitirahan, dapat macomplete muna yung down payment before we could move in, so 1 year pa..basta, super excited na kme..

2005-12-22T15:10:00.000+08:00

I was again browsing friendster, my account and lexel’s, to see updates from our friends na hindi na namen mashadong nakikita or nakakausap (hello, parang lahat ng friends namen from high school and college eh “inabandona” na namen dahil we’re still adjusting to our new status, of course we spent and will spend so many times together lalo na ckheil is on his way out..hehe)..usually sa friendster, pictures lang naman talaga tinitignan ko..hehe..

Then I came pass of friends na “in a relationship” tapos me sangkatutak na pix na nakapost sa accounts nila..hehe..nakakatuwa na inlove sila ngayon..pero pag naiisip ko na yung iba sa kanila, broke up with someone, someone na friend din namen, na nakita namen silang dalawa together, couple who used to love each other so much, tapos ngayon iba na yung kasama sa picture --- iba na yung kaakbay, iba na kasama sa mga out-of-town gigs, smiling like they’ve never been that happy before (like lexel and I never saw them really happy with their ex’s)…

Tapos naiisip ko yung friends ko nga na iniwan..na up until now single…kasi up until now they never got over their ex na happily attached na ngayon…at alam kong this Christmas would not be that great to them dahil shempre I know the feeling of wishing someone to be there for you, to hug you and tell you he loves you so much..

Minsan kahit parehas ko silang friend, I just can’t help being mad at one dahil he chose to leave my other friend alone..na how could he ever do that…

Pero come to think of it, hindi mo naman pwedeng ipilit ang hindi talaga pwede…Bakit naman kasi hindi pwedeng pag ayaw na ng isa, ayawan na..as in mutual ang decision to end the relationship..para sana no one needs to get hurt..

He finally got himself a girlfriend, he longed to get one years ago. They started on December. Things got rough, schedules from school became hectic, demands started to increase. They’ve broken up late Feb. He got himself his 2nd girlfriend by May that year. Got blamed by his first for falling in and out of love too easily, that he might not actually know what love is. Two years, 3 months, and 3 days after, he married that 2nd girlfriend and they’re currently living happily and waiting for their first born, scheduled to be part of this world late January of next year.

I use to think that you could never get over your first love…pero parang hindi na ganun sa paligid ko..or pati na sakin..i’ve fallen, say, twice before I married lexel…thought that each heartache would kill me and I could never love again..ewan ko na lang sa kabaduyan..ngayon, super ok naman kame ni lexel..gusto kong sabihing “never imagined life without him or not with him”..hehe..kasi pwede naman talaga akong magsurvive even without him..kaartehan lang and kadramahan yung mga linyang “di ko kayang wala sha”..haha! pero shempre, I would definitely choose to be with him for the longest time na pwede..kasi kahit pa madalas insensitive yun at laging asa harap ng computer at madalas akong kurutin, he never failed to amaze me..I just love that man so much..and I know he loves me more than anybody else..hehe..

2005-12-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

alfie is right here at home..nalipat na namen sha since nung monday..actually, my grannie got so emotional about it --- kasi sha yung nag-alaga ke alfie nung iniwan ko ang aking shih tzu sa makati when i moved in my in-laws house..shempre, mejo nahihiya pa daw ako dati na sangkatutak na ang doggies dito eh dadalhin ko pa ang high maintenance dog kong si alfie..hehe..pero ngayon, anong hiya-hiya?! meron pa naman, konting shyness na lang..at home na ko dito and i'm sure my in-laws don't mind na nandito si alfie ngayon..

before namen sha inuwi, we sent him to the vet for grooming..super haba na ng hair ni alf pero dahil ang mga mababait kong cousins eh nilagyan ng chewing gum ang aso ko, no choice but to have alfie be shaven in a summer's cut..kawawa..

lexel and i thought na magiging super shy na naman si alfie dahil wala shang buhok..like last time..but no..ok lang sa kanya..siguro he's happier to be with me that he didn't mind kung kalbo sha or not.

nung una, tinabi namen yung cage niya sa cage ni cloud (winnette's black labrador) but it seems na ayaw sa kanya ni cloud at binombard sha ng tahol..natakot talaga si alfie kaya we moved him sa ibang place na mas ok..natahimik si cloud, pero sad pa rin ata si alfie..

kasi sa bicutan before, sanay shang nagro-roam around the house..sa makati, forever shang nilalaro ng mga cousins ko, you know naman how shih tzus are, malalambing, attention-seekers..

kaya nga lexel and i made sure na nagspe-spend kame ng play time with him every morning before breakfast and every night before snoozing..

until yesterday morning..

umuulan, madulas ang tiles, nakabedroom slippers ako..after nameng makipaglaro ke alfie, pabalik na kame sa dining ng nadulas ako..as in dulas, npahiga talaga..

silence..

until lexel realized na nadulas nga ako and started reacting..haha..napaiyak talaga ko..hindi dahil sa pain..but for being too scared na baka me bad effect ke ckheil..

we texted the doctor immediately and nasked kame ng consultation that night..

pero nakapasok pa ko ng office..kasi ok naman ang pakiramdam ko..no blood nor water came out..

thank God it's only a positive fall..ckheil is fine..i'm on my 33rd week..baby usually came out as safely as early as the 35th week..so malapit na..

2005-11-16T17:14:00.000+08:00

though i am not leaving really, because i'm still in the house, it just felt so bad to walk out of Operations..just like kelly, i've come to love and be loved by the people..i will definitely miss the planning and seminars, the loud voices, the laughs, the asarans and "gaguhan", the utuan..

i've been at r&d since i joined kraft but it felt weird this morning..because now, i'm part of the team..i was introduced, to people i already know, to people wo welcomed me with smiles..but still, i ache to be in Operations..

lexel always tell me that r&d is better..that in any company, r&d is the place to be..that i must be glad that i'm now in a better department, with better focus on their job, with defined priorities and outputs, to be work under a manager who believes in my capabilites over my limitations..

i've always wanted to walk out on doc since the time he became my boss..and i know i've "hurt" mbd with my transfer..aminado silang they would still call me for stuffs na ako ang me ownership ...and i know i've shown doc my point na kelangan talaga ko ng Operations, most especially MBD, kahit ilang ulet pa nyang ipagkalandakan sakin na buntis ako and i have no choice but to stay..sorry na lang sha, kahit buntis ako, kinuha ako ng r&d sa Operations..ngayon, everytime na me kelangan sha sakin about capacity analysis, it'll be all be favors..

i had lunch with Operations, dahil welcome "party" para dun sa mga bagong hire ng department. we were about to leave when sir bot called us to introduce ourselves. my turn came and i said, "carol, from MBD"..everybody reacted with sir bot saying "akala ko, carol, from r&d"..

i'd be working closely with Operations. pero iba pa rin yung part ka ng department. at ngayon talaga, i can't deny that i'm sad with the thought na r&d na nga ako ngayon, kahit ginagawa ko tong entry na to sa cube ko dito sa MBD..vacant na ang cube ni al sa r&d, still hindi pa rin ako ganung kacomfortable dun..shempre..as expected..

but don't get me wrong..i am thrilled with the kind of stuffs i'd be working at for r&d..and dolly is more of a lovable manager than doc..and work schedule in r&d is definitely better than here at Operations..

all the same..until then..

2005-11-04T09:44:00.000+08:00

glad that jing and jenny were served their new contracts here in kraft yesterday..yehey! after the long wait, meron na! and their papers told they are 5k richer than being a cadet..hehe!

working here in kraft is really not bad..pag tinignan mo yung compensation and the amount of training that you're getting..add the exposure..astig talaga..masama lang talaga ang pulika..but every time na iisip ko how bad kraft politics is, naririnig ko si lexel saying "sa lahat ng companies na pwede mong lipatan, merong ganyan"..yeah..it's part of it..

been happy rin that ms vicky is officially promoted sa cs&l...and that means, her position in production logistics will be vacated soon..nagpost na ang kraft sa jobstreet about the position..shempre internal hiring muna..

we've talked to mike, boss sa logistics..sabi nya, wala naman daw nagraise ng interest sa position internally..so next in line na to be considered are the cadets..este, hindi na pala sila cadets ngayon, project engineers - trainee na..hehe..so happy for jing and jen, at least pwedeng one of them na yung makuha..

mike told jing na kakausapin sha one of these days..good luck girls! bag the position..

alfie : be lonely no more

2005-11-03T14:32:00.000+08:00

super excited na ko for january --- not just because makikita ko na yung baby namen at last..that's on top of course. but also because alfie's soon-to-be mate would be arriving by that time din!! as in!! female shih tzu on the way!

madeline texted me yesterday saying that her shih tzu had given birth to pups last 11 oct ..so by january, the pup will be 3-month old..pwede ng ilayo sa mom nya! so mabibili na namen..

told lexel immediately and he said yes! yehey! bait-bait talaga nun!

so we got a present na for alfie on his 1st birthday -- which will be on 9th jan..

batch 2 daw

2005-10-31T07:56:00.000+08:00

last friday afternoon, all cadets was called for a meeting with aldrin (OIC plant HR) for the termination of our contracts.

aldrin was not our favorite person in HR. bakit? kasi "lumaki" kame with ms. vivian..and siguro, our vision has been clouded by the thought that he's from the commercial HR, one of the department na nagpahirap sa stay namen here in kraft as cadets. but, i have to admit, aldrin tries to be good. kinakausap naman nya talaga kame ng maayos. i can see that he's trying to adjust and be part of the Operations team. sana nga..noone can serve 2 gods..

i was the first to undergo one-on-one with him..he explained why the letter contains an extension for me rather than a termination..dahil daw i need to turn-over stuffs to my boss and other colleagues in BD before transferring to r&d..dahil daw commercial HR is still drafting my new contract, i can't expect na maiserve daw yun sakin kaagad that day kasi katatapos lang daw ng selection process..fine, reasons for being inefficient..hehe..raised my brow when i saw that the extension date is until 30nov..i thought i should be on r&d by the 10th?..he explained that that contract will be pre-terminated as soon as my papers in r&d are done..yeah right, atat na atat na kong lumipat ng department!! haha!!

ngayon, application period na naman for the cadets..i would definitely be asked kung irerecommend ko ba sa friends ko yung program na to ng kraft..

from 7, we're down to 4 and sa 4 na yun, 2 pa lang kameng on the way for regularization..after a year, 2 lang of 7. me-ann is currently on probationary sa quality systems namen as product assurance officer..isang napakahirap na trabaho dahil shifting..pero it's a really good experience and if she decides na umalis ng kraft, napakaganda din nun sa resume..hehe..ako nga, sa r&d..i am not aware of the benefits yet, kasi di pa nga naseserve ang new contract..so tignan ko muna...CI has a very good plan for jenny..kahit ngayon na irerenew muna sha ulet as project-based. she handles the PRISM project na kelangan icascade sa China, at sino pa ba ang ipapapadala dun kundi sha diba? alangan naman magpadala sila ng casual employee sa China para magtrain? hehe..kalokohan naman yun..doc has plans for jing as well..papasok na sa manufacturing si sir mel to be a production supervisor kaya mava-vacate ang isang position for process engineer --- the position that has been offered to me-ann, then to me..pero pareho na nameng hindi nahintay ni me-ann sa tagal..hehe..kaya definitely jing will have the position once mavacate yun..

sad lang na hindi kameng 7 complete here. i'm happy for carlo because nasa dream job na nya sha sa p&g.. i can say bilib ako ke TP dahil he values his pride and he believes in himself.. gagawin ko din ang ginawa nya if i were in his shoes.. maligaya na ata sha ngayon sa moog sa baguio, kahit he's living there all by himself.. i will definitely miss kelly, though alam kong masaya shang umalis ng kraft..

i must say my cadet experience in kraft is not all milk and honey.. madalas akong mademotivate, maasar, at magtanong ng "what's next?".. lucky me i've been given good projects, i've been assigned in the best department in Operations.. walang kapatawaran siguro kung magiging biktima pa ko ng pulitika sa situation ko.. all i need to do then is work hard and be good, which i did kaya magiging maayos ang situation ko dito..

so it's a case-to-case basis..sasabihin kong ok lang maging project-based ka dito sa kraft for 1 year, kahit pa 2 years, basta maaassign ka sa mbd at si sir bot ang manager mo.. yun ang common samen ni me-ann, kaya ok kame ngayon.. otherwise, kelangan mo talagang pag-isipan..

at the end of my 1st year

2005-10-27T18:41:00.000+08:00

my contract with kraft as cadet engr is to be terminated tomorrow..ewan ko na lang sa HR namen..when we're hired, 3 days before our first day of work lang kame pinagsign ng contract..ngayong termination of contract, last minute pa rin..nakow, system..

of course i know i will be renewed..alvin, our MT, told me before that my new boss couldn't afford to lose me for the reason na bago nga sha sa BD kaya hindi nya pa gamay ang business development work, how we process engineers handle stuffs and all..true enough, doc (the name of my new boss actually) told me and jing na marerenew nga kame..jing's contract is up until june of next year..mine? guess up until when? january 15, 2006..pathetic! can't blame them..due ang baby ko by the end of january..it made me feel sick..do i deserve a contract covering for 2 and a half months?!? darn!

up until the r&d job came in late last week..dolly asked for my records along with jing's and kelly's..al is leaving for mead johnson and they need someone to replace him..

been the first one to be interviewed..by jayvee and dolly..not so much of a formal interview, more of an awkward conversation between colleagues..they know i've been part of the team since time immemorial and asking questions out of formality really sucks..i think that interview was the hardest interview i've gone..kasi kilala na nila ko, alam na nila mga ginawa kong trabaho, i can't sell myself, or just come up with lies ng ganun ganun lang..alam nila ang mga demotivations ko about work because more than once i've shared it with them..

jing got "eliminated" on the way just because she's a manufacturing engineering grad..r&d wants to focus on chem engrs..which leaves me and kelly for the position..but i was very positive..no offense to kelly but there is that great pride within me na i'm bagging the quest..been exposed with r&d, worked with them most of the time..

an informal announcement from doc to the process engrs brought news that i was chosen by the r&d team..got so happy i texted lexel kagad..been so happy..sir bot had constantly been teasing me that my red shirt had brought happiness to me..jayvee has asked virg (someone from commercial HR) to fast rack the processing of my papers so that i could be transferred to r&d by november 10..really positive huh?!

up until virg calendar-ed an interview with bella (R&D Asia Pacific Director for Cheese and Grocery)..not just me..pati sila jing and kelly..kala ko ba the team had chosen someone na?

3:30pm i was at SEA. waited for bella i guess for 15 mins..

it's more of a venue for explanation rather than an interview..can't forget what bella told me..

"i've read you credentials. you came in highly recommended by the Operation managers as well as jayvee. i know you've been offered an r&d job in chichago and john topinka would never recommend you for that job if you're not good. you really have an edge on this position, but i don't want to appear discriminating you just because you're pregnant. the bulk of r&d work is during the first quarter of the year, which you will not be available. just if we decided not to get you in r&d, i assure you it's more of a business decision."

ouch..i left her room really dishearted..sinong hindi? i've been really good, everybody knows it..but my current situation is my greatest disadvantage..

i don't want to be sad and blame the baby..but it really pained me knowing na yun lang ang only thing for my disqualification..but i can't blame them naman..business decision nga..i understand..

i was back at mbd room when sir bot asked me how the interview went..i told him about my unavailability and importance of my presence during the first quarter of the year is to r&d..he just smiled and told me "dapat sinabi mo papacaesarean mo yan ng december"..hehe..tawang-tawa sha..and then seriously said "keep your hopes high"..

thought about the r&d work in the US..john topinka just recommended me to his associate director for a vacant position in their team..i have to work for Kraft USA..imagine!! Kraft in US is something, and if you're working there, you're someone..SG level? 9..ewan ko na lang sa pagiging halimaw ng offer..it's really a great opportunity..an opportunity that i am not sure will come my way again if ever i let it pass..ilang beses ko ng sinulat dito na hindi ako comfortable to go outside the country..and if i were to live at chicago alone, and leave my husband and baby here, nakow parang mahirap ata yun..hindi ko kayang isacrifice yung time ko with them just for anything..di bale sana kung complete family relocation..dun alam ko papayag pa si lexel..

or me offer pa naman sakin ang Operations..kahit 2.5months lang yun..kasi ire-retracked naman daw ako after ko manganak (as if!)..

while i was talking to kelly on the phone about how her interview with bella went, binulungan ako ni doc ng congratulations..i already got the job na raw..and that swerte talaga yung baby ko..na this calls for a toho daw, not just toho, dampa daw..andun kasi si jayvee sa office ni sir bot, with nef, and mike..

just this morning, sir bot's office was locked..i have one message from him on my inbox saying

...Carol, though this is still early, I like to be the first to congratulate you. Your excellent performance is now recognized. Keep up the good work!...

he even attached the mail forwarded to them by bella..

..hi jayvee, virg. i'm okay with carol replacing al as scientist1...

sus! sabi nga ni lexel --- "hanep!"...

so it's a happy birthday for me after all..gone were the days of being project-based..r&d is offering me a good career here in the country..but surely i will miss the guys from Operations..though i would still be working with them..pero shempre, hindi na ko kasama during planning, or sessions like Unleash..i will be working for r&d but my heart will always be with Operations..

sir bot, don't worry..i promise to bring improvements on the relationship of r&d with operations. naks..improvements..

joys of pregnancy

2005-10-06T19:37:00.000+08:00

i have always wished to have a baby girl. lexel doesn't care about the gender, as long as it's healthy then it's fine with him..sabi nya, kapag first baby, ang important kasi yung magkaron kayo ng baby, hindi kung anong gender nun..i really imagined i'll have a girl..most friends guessed and wished the same..

then just recently, i felt i was carrying a twin..i even convinced lexel to think the same..then on, i was silently wishing na twin na nga sna..para one pregnancy and it's the end of it..hindi na kame magb-baby ulet kasi we always wanted to have 2 kids..nothing more..and super konti lang ng me twins..so kabilib just in case magkaron kame..

having a boy passed my mind..shempre lahat naman ng option papasok sa mind mo pag pregnant ka..though nobody is pressuring me, not my family nor my in-laws, giving birth to a boy would be an ultimate accomplishment of all..kasi unico hijo ang asawa, so kung me magkocontinue ng family name nila, siya lang yun..so dapat bumuhay talaga kame ng isang enecio who'll continue the name all the same..

yesterday, i was at m-tech 8-11am for my laboratory tests, 5-6pm for my consultation with my OB and ultrasound..imagine how excited was i..sobra..as in..iba pala yung feeling na nakikita mo na me baby talaga..kasi madalas akong lokohin ng asawa ko na pano kung hindi bata ang reason kung bakit lumalaki ang tyan ko, which, sobrang kinaiinis ko kasi ayoko ng bad thoughts shempre..kahit ilang times na nameng narinig yung heart beat ng baby on our previous check ups, iba pa rin yung nakita ko na meron talagang baby..

shots na nakukuha sa ultrasound are bits and pieces na lang ng baby, hindi na kayang whole body kasi malaki na nga sha..then dr aguilar started measuring the head, pointed the heart, arms, thighs, legs..pero ang kagigil eh yung malaman mo na talaga yung gender diba?

so to answer the question, she positioned the knob in a way na yung thighs ang makikita..nakadapa ang baby ko, good position to check for the gender..sabi kasi, pag nakatihaya yung baby, usually napagkakamalang penis yung umbilical cord. since nakadapa yung baby ko, in between the thigh is something round, large enough not to be mistaken as umbilical cord..so that's it..it's a boy for me and lexel..yehey! tama ka TP, it's a little lexel after all the denials..

so bored

2005-10-03T20:03:00.000+08:00

didn't do anything last weekend..lexel and i spent 2 days at home, mostly sa room (o wag mag-isip ng malaswa) unless maliligo, kakain or iinom..hala nag-ayos lang ako ng blog template ko, sha, nagstarcraft..

so parang wala akong makwento ngayon..ah yun, me pasa pala ko sa left arm ko..dalwa..shocks, ang panget as in..naiinis talaga ko..akala ni sir nelson, iron deficient ako..akala ni sir abet, me leukemia ako..ewan..nung sinabi kong kagagawan ng mister ko, aba si sir nelson kakaiba ang hirit, sinipsip daw..mas ewan!!! sucker!?! whehehe..the truth is, kinagat ako ni lexel..oo..kinagat..NI LEXEL..si lexel who always thought na malambing lang daw sha kumagat..ewan ko, friday night, nanggigil, kinagat ako..ang lakas ng sigaw ko i don't know kung narinig yun ng in-laws ko na nanonood ng tv sa sala (hope not)..ang tagal kong umiyak..hehe..nakakatawa to think na iyak talaga..haha!

sana lang mawala na kagad kasi ang pangit talagang tignan kasi ang laki..

batch 2

2005-09-28T14:45:00.000+08:00

New aspiring cadets were here for their interview..grabe, first interview pa lang nila, panel na composed of 2 managers and an HR. inisip ko, nung nalaman kong yung 3rd interview ko with kraft is panel, kinabahan ako..what more kung first interview mo diba?

Tapos nung samen dati, yung technical interview, chicka lang..haha..as in “tell me about your plant design”..andali..samantalang ngayon, basic engineering questions ang pinagtatanong ng mga managers. Basic. As in alam mo talaga yun dapat. And usually, alam namana talaga yun kaso lang pag naunahan ng matinding kaba, wala, mental block..and yun daw ang nangyayari madalas..wala halos nakapagpaimpress sa mga managers pagdating sa technical aspects ng interview.

The managers tested us. Lalo na at chemical engineer ako..pati si Kelly..and siguro kasi hindi na kame kinakabahan in front of them or kasi we see them as friends asking usual questions or kasi dahil nahihiya ako at boss ko yun ayokong magmukhang enggot ako kaya nasagot naman namen ni Kelly..magkasunod kameng tinanong and guess what, parehong pareho sagot namen..hehe..

Wala pang naiinterview from UP..ewan ko, ayokong magbuhat ng bangko pero somehow, there’s some pride in me kasi walang UP..iniisip ko, “kaya pala wala pang nakakaimpress sa kanila technically”..haha..ang yabang..

Siguro one thing lang about UP --- we surely don’t have the facilities na tulad ng sa La Salle, na as in World Class and pang benchmark daw pag dating sa ChE laboratory..pero UP made sure na bugbog kames a basics..haha..kasi wala kameng mashadong gamit, kaya halos puro basic stuffs ang panlaban namen..pag tinanong nga kame pano kinukuha ang density, hindi ko maiisip kaagad ang pycnometer. Though meron kames a ChE lab, hindi nagawa ng group namen ang experiment na yun, so care ko kung papano sha ginagamet. Anywaste, pwede ko naman iresearch sa net kung papano sha gagamitin, or basahin sa manual nung instrument nay un kapag pinagamet sakin..kapag tinanong sakin kung papano ko kukunin ang density, sasagot ko water displacement…hehe..hindi ko naisip yung practicality na kasi hindi naman lahat merong pycnometer. Basta ang alam ko, yung sagot kong method, alam nung mga gumagamit ng pycnometer, pati nung mga hindi pa nakakakita kung anong itsura nung pycnometer na yun..hehe..

5 out of 14 interviewees..good luck..

just for everybody’s knowledge...

2005-09-19T19:14:00.000+08:00

...my and lex’ baby would be “part of this world” by January 21, 2006, as my OB had calculated it..sorry for TP, no little lexel yet..though the sex of the baby could be determined on my check up this October 5, my OB is betting that we’ll be having a girl (for the very reason that I don’t experience morning sickness, I don’t have any kaartehan ever related to pregnancy, and she never failed in her guesses)..relatives and friends also suspects it’s a girl since I’m pretty daw (whehehe) and my tummy is round..i don’t know..ultrasound would confirm everything next month..

Lexel wants to have a girl..shempre, mga girls daw malambing sa dad..and yung reasoning nya, mas madali daw magmature ang girls, so ok na panganay to guide her sibs (hala, me plano talaga shang magkaroon ng more than 1 kid!?..pero Dionne, sabi nya, ok naman daw sa kanya magfamily planning, ayaw nya daw kameng maghirap..hehe)..

Mommy wants a girl too..sabi nya, pag babae, kanya na daw yun, alagaan nya as in..pag boy, ok lang pero hindi kasi sha ganung kasanay magpalaki talaga ng boys..

Jing is planning to have a baby shower sa hospital pa lang..hehe, practice para sa aming future business venture about events coordination..so to my friends na dapat maging part ng baby shower, don’t be surprised if someone named “jing bautista” would text you around January or February” telling you details about the party..hehe..

Last night, lexel and I made some calculations..by the time our kid graduated for a 5-year college course at 21, we’re aged 45. Just in case magkababy ulet kame after 5 years, graduate na rin yun pag 50 years lang kameng dalawa..we could have an early retirement kung empleyado pa rin kame nung mga year na yun (which is impossible daw kasi magtatayo kame ng sariling planta..hehe)..pwede na daw kame magtravel-travel around the world (yehey!)..yan, yan ang right perspective!

Though there are people who will judge, there are people who’ll say not-so-good words about us --- I can’t blame them..we often misjudge things that we don’t understand..siguro lang what I can say is, this is something that lexel and I have chosen..and we feel good with this decision no matter what the consequences are..we might have disappointed some people --- but those people, we both know, we’ll be very happy kapag me bibong chikiting na that they could play with..

I would not be a hypocrite..there are times na iniisip ko that this is not a good time to have this baby --- kasi I’m just starting with my career, gigil na gigil pa ko sa work accomplishments ko, ayokong mawala sa circulation, pero kelangan because of my current situation..

During 3rd year college, I became obsessed with my figure that I underwent diet-to-death (almost)..a month of almost not eating anything halos water lang, harassed and overstressed with my application at UP KEM…hindi nakayanan ng katawan ko…one Friday night, naulanan ako, super taas ng fever ko pag-uwi ko…the next day, ginising ako ng mom ko, late na daw ako sa school..pagtayo ko, darkness dawned..next thing I know, asa makati med na ko..been hospitalized for more than a week, missed exams and classes..was diagnosed to have electrolyte imbalance…the doctor advised me to consult an OB, dahil iniisip nyang me effect daw sa reproductive system ko yung naging sakit ko..i did..the OB said it’s too early to tell, pero me possibility na nga mahirapan akong magkababy..

Told lexel about this months pa lang kameng together..wala lang sa kanya..he even joked about it, ok lang daw kasi yayaman kame, walang pag-aaralin..though of course, for me, super sad nung ganung thought..

So imagine kung paano naging ecstatic si lexel nung nalaman nyang I’m pregnant..kaya nagkaroon ng kasalan na maganda..hehe..kasalanag na someone thought na super obsessed ako with (naiintindihan mo na siguro)..

Dun sa nagcomment sa isa kong entry ng “how about thanking lexel for marrying you?”..ewan ko na lang sayo, dahil hindi mo alam ang pinagsasasabi mo! Haha! Lexel is the most responsible person, next to my mom, that I know..hindi ko kelangan ipagkalandakan sa blog how much thankful I am of having him..because alam nya, I tell him each and every night..at yun lang naman yung mahalaga --- the fact that he knows..

"hay"

2005-09-15T19:28:00.000+08:00

nakakapagod lately..kasi ang dameng trabaho sa office..pag dating ko sa house, dahil sa current situation ko, i need to rest..

ngayon ko lang napansin na umuuwi na lang pala ko para matulog..oo..sa bahay, pagpasok ko sa door, direcho ako sa room..then higa and snooze hanggang sa dumating from his nakaugaliang overtime ang asawa ko..then gigisingin nya ko, kain na daw ng dinner..lalabas kame ng room, magdidinner..tapos magtu-toothbrush ako, hilamos..then balik na sa room, ia-alarm ang cellphone, then tulog..

sa morning, pipiliting gumising si lexel..pag napatayo ko na sha, lalabas kame ng room para magbreakfast..iinom kame ng vitamins, then ligo na..after maligo, prepare pumasok..tapos pasok na sa office..

o diba? para lang kameng borders sa bahay nila..kumakain and natutulog lang dun..halos hindi nga kame nagkakaroon ng chance to talk to his mom/dad/lola/sis..actually dapat pagdating ko, yung time na hinihintay ko lang si lexel, yun ang chance to spend time with them..kaso aside from the fact na kelangan ko talaga ng enough rest and nakukuha ko lang yun with panakaw naps, medyo nahihiya pa rin ako sa in-laws ko..hehe..palakwento naman ako, hindi nga ako maubusan ng sinasabi every night kay lexel eh..sabi nga sa Unleash, 25thou words ang lumalabas sa mga babae..hehe..kaso kasi, naturally quiet ata talaga yung mga in-laws ko..para ding si lexel -- pag di mo kinausap, wala lang, nood lang ng tv..shempre, what can everybody expect from me? nahihiya pa talaga ko eh..sa house kasi namen noon, ganun din ako, direcho sa room. lalabas lang pag kakain and gagamit ng banyo..my mom, sis, titas, even my grannie eh pumupunta sa room ko kung me kelangan sila from me..

i usually ask lexel din naman na magstay muna kame sa sala for a while after nameng magdinner..wala lang, kasi mas comfortable siguro akong makikisalamuha sa family nya kung andun sha diba? kaso naman, laging ang sagot sakin, "dun na lang tayo sa room manood ng TV"..ngek..hindi ko rin sha masisi, malamang pagod sha sa work, gustong humilata ng matagal na oras..

lagi akong nireremind ng mom ko, iba na pag me asawa..kelangan asikasuhin ko daw..and i'm doing it right now..kahit na walang magagawa sa house nila dahil lahat ng chores dun, pati paghahain ng plato, maid ang gumagawa..though sabi nga ng mom ko, batugan daw ako by nature, naspoil kasi mashado..aminado ako, hindi ako marunong magluto, maglaba, magplantsa..and comfort talaga yung binigay ni lexel dahil i don't have to do those stuffs..pero nahihiya ako..i want to do chores, or stuffs, pero wala akong gagawin eh..

i've told lexel..sabi nya, kung anu-ano na naman daw pinag-iisip ko..wag ko daw problemahin ang mga bagay na walang kwenta..and hindi daw maganda yung mga ganung worries sa situation ko ngayon, i'm just stressing myself daw..

pero iba talaga..gusto ko ng sariling house, sariling maid...siguro kasi nasanay ako na ako ang in control sa halos lahat..ngayon, i need to adjust...

inaalala ko tuloy how was it nung dinala nung mga tito ko yung mga wife nila sa house ng lola ko..it's different..kasi hindi naman sila kinasal..walang kasalan, basta nagstay sila together, nagkaanak, and yun, tanggap na ng family na wife na yung girl ng tito ko..sabi ko dati, me advantage pa ko, kasi kame ni lexel, kinasal kame..hehe..me public announcement na "oi, they're to stay together if not forever, at least until they both want to"..

tahimik kasi mashado sa house ng in-laws ko..hehe..nakakapanibago kasi super different sa house namen..kasi dun, madameng bata, ang saya..hehe..dramatic din dun kasi ang dameng problem, paulet-ulet lang naman..pero parang natutuwa yung mga kapamilya ko sa pinagtatalunan nila kasi inuulet-ulet nga nila eh..kame nga ni khaye, pag me nag-aaway sa house namen dati, natatawa na lang kame..hehe..parang teleserye kasi..mommy ko kasi, pag-uwi nyan or pag-uwi ko, tatabihan na nya ko, mag-uusap kame ng mga nangyari nung araw na yun, kahit mga tsismis lang..

hay, namimiss ko na pala ang family ko..almost 2 weeks pa lang akong hindi nila ako kasama pero i'm really missing them..kahit na madalas kameng magtalo ng mom ko kasi madameng kameng outlook in life na magkaiba..kahit na madalas din kameng magkatampuhan ni khaye dahil hindi kame pareho ng gusto..kahit na naiinis ako dati ke alfie kasi hindi ko matoilet train..

namimiss ko yung me kausap..sana i could skip some months para may baby na kame..para me constant na kong kasama and kausap (though at start, ako lang kakausap sa kanya, ok na rin yun)..kung pwede lang talaga na sa makati na lang kame magstay..hindi naman pwedeng ako na lang laging nasusunod, kelangan sumunod din ako ke lexel, he wants to live with his parents, so sunod lang..

wish ko lang sana makulet ang baby ko..as in..ayokong tahimik sha..gusto ko super bibo..

sad

2005-09-14T16:16:00.000+08:00

The boss whom I rightfully claimed to be mine, will only spend a few more moments here in Kraft --- and he’s very vocal about that. As I’ve told here, he’s been diagnosed to have kidney failure. Now, he undergoes dialysis twice a week..it costs Php 8thou per session, so that’s Php 16thou per week, equivalent to almost a month salary of mine.. Imagine..and he told Ms Gie “kaya nga ako pumapasok na, kasi wala na kong pera..joke”..Kasi naman, sa Makati Med sha nagpapadialysis, andun yung doctor nya, eh talagang mahal.. ang normal delivery nga dun sabi ni Sir Alex, umabot ng 90thou sa wife nya..kaya dapat makahanap talaga ng mas murang clinic si sir bot..

His mother was diabetic..his father, with hypertension..of 8 kids, sha yung sumalo sa parehong sakit ng parents nila. The rest of his siblings are healthy. Sabi nga nya, “ok na rin na ako na yung nagkaroon ng ganitong sakit, kasi kung sa mga kapatid ko napunta, para hindi nila nakayanan”…sha kasi yung may magandang job, sha yung may understanding wife, sha yung walang anak.. “kaya ng siguro hindi kame binigyan ng anak, kasi magiging ganito yung situation ko”…he really is the savior of his family..sha nagpaaral sa lahat ng kapatid nya..kaya late na shang nakapag-asawa, kaya hindi na ganung kataas ang probability nyang magkaanak noon..

He’s really one of the people I look up to..hindi sha nakaattend sa kasal namen ni lexel for the reason that he has a scheduled dialysis that day..i value him as a father, not just a mere mentor..and my heart really goes out to him because I know that he wants to do a lot of things for Kraft pa..but his health is limiting him to do so..dito sa office, iba nung wala sha..nakakatamad..ang lungkot..parang lahat kame at a lost..kasi we really need him..though I know most stuffs regarding projects on exports, he still missed sir bots sa mga telecons namen…I’m still a cadet, and I can’t do decisions instantly, I need someone guiding me pag dating sa mga decisions on productions..and there is no one better that him..

Now, since he got back, hindi na nya ini-involve mashado yung sarili nya sa activites ng Business Development..kasi naisip nya siguro na dapat nasanay na yung bago sa trabaho dahil 3 weeks shang nawala..

Basta sir bot, please make your 12 years at least 15 years..

it's finally over!

2005-09-05T09:21:00.000+08:00

after 4 months of stressful preparations, sabi nga ni fatima and emy, i'm the brand new "mrs enecio"..i just wished his surname is smith para mala-angelina jolie na ko..haha! hay grabe, super dameng naging palpak (lexel failed to introduce tito sandy to ona, so hindi nakapunta kagad si ona sa gazebo to receive the guests), andameng bloopers (tinaas ko ang veil ko before pa sabihin ng priest na "you may now kiss your bride"..haha!), dameng frustrating moments (hindi nabigay ni lexel ang revised seat plan ke cheechai, hindi nasunod ang seat plan kasi pagpasok sa reception, kanya-kanyang kuha ng table ang guests), dameng nakakabanas na shots (dahil ang aking photographer ay 3 hrs during prep ako pinagkukunan ng pictures)..pero tapos na..and everybody happy..

sa speech ko, wala akong nasabi kundi ang hirap magprepare...hindi ko na nadetail ang thank you's ko..so eto..

thanks ke tito willie dahil ok yung make-up and hair style nya for me..for being at the hotel early enough para super ready na ko before my pictorials..salamat ke tita venus, ang aming florist..ok yung flowers kaso naharass din ata sa photographer ko kaya sa simbahan pa lang ay lantutay na yung ibang bulaklak..sa C2, kahit na pinahirapan ako sa karamihan ng shots, kahit ayoko yung ibang awkward poses na pinapagawa sakin (ehem, hindi po ako model-modelan talaga..hehe), kasi nag-aact din naman silang coordinator..hehe..ke Father --- anoi nga palang pangalan nung celebrant namen? hindi kasi talaga namen alam..nakakatawa dahil mejo parang ang layo ata sa event nung homily nya..anyway..sa gazebo dahil maganda talaga yung place nila..sa swan catering dahil mas pinaganda nila yung place and dahil ok naman daw yung food (honestly, baked mac lang ang nakain ko)..kina tito willie and anthony, marose and droz, and of course cifra na mga kumanta sa reception..

thanks ke ian dahil all-around sha..lahat kasama..at some point, financer pa namen..ke sarah, for being so kind of a host..ke jenny na pinalitan kagad yung sis ko sa toast kasi ayaw na ng sis ko at nag-aalburoto na kasi sha..ke tp na bumaba pa from baguio to give the prayer before meal..

thanks ke eunice from travelling all the way from japan just to attend my wedding..sa buong entourage ko for appearing all beautiful and presentable..

thanks sa mga readers namen --- ate achie, yasmin, gail, and shane..jing napatawad na kita, alam kong traffic..at sinalo ka naman ni ate achie..special mention talaga dapat si ate achie dahil hindi kame nakapag-hi man lang nung wedding, hehe..salamat talaga!

thanks kina cheechai and ona..mga aunt ko na "inalila" ko talaga..as in lahat ng utos, lahat ng sigaw..hehe...sorry..frustrated na kasi ako..alam ko namang ok lang sa inyo dahil super loves nyo ko..

thanks sa kraft cadets and ojt's..thanks sa micom engineers lalo na ke jem dahil kuha sha ng kuha ng pictures..sa mga batchmates ko sa UP ChE dahil dumating sila kahit 1 day before the event ko lang sila in-invite..hehe, ang dame pa nilang gifts!

thanks sa mga ninong and ninang namen..hehe..salamat po sa cash! kelangan talaga namen yun..haha!

thanks sa mom ko for always helping and understanding me..thanks ke nanay kahit na mejo me problem ang arm nya eh inihatid pa rin ako sa altar..thanks ke khaye na kahit na ganun yun eh all the way ang support sakin ng kapatid ko..thanks sa mga in-laws ko for being there, always willing to help..

i've been like this..lately..

2005-08-30T11:08:00.000+08:00

weekend

2005-08-29T07:01:00.000+08:00

ok talaga yung Unleash..kahit saturday pa sha ng maaga, super worth it yung time na spend mo for it..motivating and empowering..salamat na lang sa Kraft at nagbibigay sila ng mga ganitong klaseng seminar..i just hope na one day, mapapayag ko si lexel na mag-attend..hindi kasi yun naniniwala sa mga moti-motivational speeches eh..me sarili daw sha..hehe..

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though i hate to leave Unleash early, i have to kasi nagkaron ng emergency sa house ng lola ko sa makati..imagine, one week na lang it's my wedding day na tapos magkakaron pa ng accidente sa family ko!?! super worried lang talaga ko kasi muntik na masunog ang house dahil sa LPG tank na yun..tapos ang mga magagaling kong tiyuhin eh iniwan ang total of 5 kids nila sa matanda! sus! kawawa! buti na nga lang andun si khaye to assist my grannie..

palpak pa yung first aid nung rescue team (kung rescue team ngang matatawag yun) dahil nilagyan ng petroleum gel yung burnt arm ng lola ko..not as in burnt, pero paso talaga kasi she tried to turn the knob nung stove para patayin yung fire..kakainis! so i have to bring her sa nearest clinic pa para maayos yung first aid..thank God at asa Unleash na kagad si lexel at nasamahan ako sa makati pati sa clinic..almost hysterical na ko pero napakakalmado talaga nung lalaking yun..

buti na lang, ok na lahat..nagwoworry lang si grannie sa arm niya kasi ngayon conscious na conscious yung matanda..she doesn't want a dress na hindi long-sleeved for my wedding..buti na lang hindi pa nakakabili ang mom ko for her, kung hindi at di long-sleeved ang dress nun, hindi yung lalakad sa altar..

gusto kong pagalitan ang mga tito ko pati yung wife nung isa..kasi it's really wrong to leave their super kukulet kids to an oldie..imbis na nagpapahinga ung matanda, nagbabantay at nag-aasikaso ng mga anak nila..ewan ko ba! pero pamangkin lang ako, at wala akong pakialam dun, no matter how hurt i was when i saw my grannie's burnt arm..i have asked her a lot of times to live with mom sa parañaque but ayaw nya..wish ko lang sana magkaron naman ng konting sense of responsibility yung mga anak nyang lalaki..hay naku!

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nagcelebrate kame ng birthday ni jinggai sa house nila..dami food, and ang sarap!! hehe! happy birthday ulet jing!

tp could not make it sa aming wedding..hay, kawawa nga yun at nakakawan ng 2 cellphones at wallet dun sa baguio..sinungkit daw, wonder papanot masusungkit yung cellphone..rugby daw..ok..astig din talaga mag-isip ang mga magnanakaw, creative..kaya naiintindihan ko kung hindi na sha makakababa..oi tp! mag-ingat-ingat ka jan!

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kahapon, super nafufrustrate na ko kasi lumalaki na ang tyan ko at wala ng magkasya saking damit! alam nyo naman, puros fitting ang aking clothes..ngayon, sagwang tignan..hehe..

lexel is really kind dahil sinamahan na naman nya kong bumili ng stuffs ko..sinabay na namen sa pagbili ko ng shoes..hehe..ganda ng shoes ko, astig! kakatuwa kasi not that expensive sha! we went to market market to find some clothes..konti lang nabili ko..then we went straight to landmark, sus! sana dun na lang kame dumerecho..hehe..mas ok pa!

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pinatry namen sa dalawang bata yung gown and barong nila..astig..ganda talaga nung barong, cute nung gown..nakalimutan ko namang bumili yung floral chuvaness sa carolinas..sayang..

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habang asa glorietta kame at hinihintay sila emmie, nakapanood kame ng movie (hay, ang tagal na ata since nagpunta kame sa moviehaus dahil sa kabusy-han sa wedding preparations!)..nanood kame ng The Longest Yard..nakakaaliw..ok sha..pampatanggal ng stress..

bahay-bahayan

2005-08-24T15:47:00.000+08:00

just this lunch, sa sm sucat kame kumain ng mga cadets..after nameng kumain, nagdecide kame na tumingin na ng gift nila for me and lexel sa aming wedding..hehe..oo, kasama ako para pumili..haha!

nakakatuwa..naisip ko tuloy, dapat dati pa kame nag-ikot ni lexel tapos nagpicture kame ng stuffs na gusto nameng iregalo samen, list namen yung price and where to buy it..iisigaw ng iba jan, "hey try mo kaya magbridal registry"..hello, kung rustan's, rustan's lang yan..knowing rustan's, mahal pa presyo dun..and yung mga trips naman nameng stuffs hindi mo lang mabibili sa isang department store eh..

naisip ko din, sana kasi dun na kame kagad sa own house namen..kasi for everybody's awareness, ako ay bibitbitin ng aking magiging esposo sa bahay nila sa greenheights..kahit hindi ko mashadong gusto..hindi naman dahil ayoko sa house nila or ayokong makasama ang family nya..kasi everybody would agree din naman with me pag sinabi ko na iba pa rin kung me sariling house ang mag-asawa..lexel rin naman wants us to have our own house, sino ba namang hindi..what he told me, we just have to save for 1-2 years until we have enough money para makapagdown ng townhouse..then, we'll move out of their house..

wala lang..kasi naisip ko, ang aayusin lang namen after ng wedding namen eh yung kwarto nya..papalitan ang bed, bibili ng tv, lagayan ng tv, dvd player, mp3 player, magandang dresser, magandang shoe rack, magandang bed covers, magandang curtains, sangkatutak na abubot like pictures, scented candles, etc, full length mirror..all in matching colors..hehe..na para bang kakasya lahat ng yun sa magiging kwarto namen, good luck saken..shempre if possible, gusto parepaint ang room nya dahil blue yun..i want it either light yellow or green..

complete na kasi gamit sa house nila..ang sagwa namang magparegalo ng stuffs na hindi naman namen magagamit kaagad..kasi alam naman nating lahat na ang gamet kahit bago pag hindi mo ginamit, masisira..

so yun, nag-iisip pa tuloy ako ng pwedeng iregalo samen..and i will definitely post it here or i'll make a new site para ilagay lahat sila dun so that those who have no idea can get a glimpse..sana magawa ko na this..iniisip ko tuloy mag-off sa friday tutal wala naman akong mashadong ginagawa lately..or kaya sa sunday, after nameng magpapicture ni lexel..

pwede rin naman kasing cash na lang ang bigay nung iba, kung ayaw nilang mahirapan mag-isip..whehehe..joke lang!

ospital

2005-08-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

yesterday, got shocked that my ex-boss, bot de borja, eh nakaconfine sa makati med..hala, ayan na, inatake na naman ba? ano yung magiging effect nun? bypass na ba? kasi naka2 na shang andioplasty?

so the first chance na magkaroon kame na magkapunta sa hospital is around 5:30pm (uwian shempre)..nakarating kame dun ng mga 6:30 dahil sa mahabang route na tinuro ni sir alex (ngek!)..asa kidney unit na sha..2 by 2 ang pasok..ako ay last na nakapasok..

he doesn't look ill though it pains me to see him na nakahiga dun, me nakakabit na dialysis machine..sabi ko magpagaling sha..oo daw kasi pupunta pa sha sa kasal ko..sabi ko niresched ang Unlease nya ng Sept3..madali lang daw yun, paparesked ulet niya..sinabihan ko na hindi pwedeng absent sha sa kasal ko..eto namang si sir abet, sabay tanong kung ninong ko ba daw? hehe..natawa si sir bot eh! dapat naman talaga ninong ko sha, him being so fatherly towards me, pero shempre nahiya naman ako kasi pwedeng sabihin ng ibang tao dyan na conflict of interest kasi immediate boss ko sha..kaya hindi ko sha ginawang ninong though i really wanted to..ang laki ng utang na loob ko sa taong yun..

i tried to sound jolly..though i really wanted to cry..kasi ayoko shang ganun..kasi nagwoworry talaga ko sa kanya..kasi kahit nakahiga na sha dun, me sakit, trabaho pa rin ang iniisip nya..

his wife is all smiling and telling us jokes..siguro front nga lang para hindi na nga mashadong mag-alala ang mga people..or defense mechanism na rin para hindi sha mashadong magworry..

seeing her, naisip ko talaga na hindi ko kayang maging ganun..tama nga si jing, malamang i will spend the whole time praying sa chapel or crying..pero shempre crying won't help..

naisip ko ding hindi ko kayang makita si lexel sa situation na ganun..though i really know how workaholic he is..pero healthy living naman ang asawa ko..walang bisyo yan (doesn't smoke, drinks in moderation)..di ko maisip na pwedeng yung trabaho nya yung kukuha sa kanya from me and his soon-to-be kids..

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mabait si lexel kagabi (lagi naman)..kasi he fetched me kahit nagkawala-wala sha sa ayala dahil hindi nya makita ang mcdo ng amorsolo..hindi sha nainis kahit hindi pa sha nagdidinner..kaya nagdrop by na lang kame sa brothers burger para meron shang kainin habang nagda-drive..nahihirapan nga eh..dun ko naisip na sana talaga marunong akong magdrive..kasi wala akong magawa than to hold his food at iabot ang mga gusto nyang kagatin..so naisip ko talaga, one of this days, mag-aaral na kong magdrive..kasi minsan, kaya lang slight na nagiging sarcastic yun eh pag pagod na kakamaneho (i can't blame him for that)..and hindi bagay sa kanya ang masungit..hehe! nakakatawa!

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kwentuhan kagabi ang tungkol sa panganganak..ewan ko na lang sa makati med, dahil yung wife ni sir alex, normal delivery umabot ng 82thou..ewan ko na lang! niloloko tuloy ako ni lexel na sa pgh daw ako pag ako na..hay, wish ko lang hindi ako mahirapan..

i hate mondays

2005-08-22T10:42:00.000+08:00

Ang sakit ng mata ko..hehe..dahil siguro for crying so long last night..naniningkit lalo ang chinky eyes ko..hehe..

Nagkaron kame ng “petty misunderstanding” ni lexel..one of the few incidences na talagang pinag-usapan namen..

Yesterday, my gown as well all the other gowns and barongs arrived..super late dumating nung dressmaker pero worth ang paghihintay..super ganda nung barongs..as in me built-in lining na kaya naaccentuate yung color nung barong..astig! Pati yung sa mga bearers, super cute! I just wished na jed or ted was there para nakita ko how cute they’ll be in it..

The gowns are not yet fully done, kasi nga fitting pa lang to, they need to do adjustments before they finalized the design..so nung nakita kong suot ng ibang members ng entourage, mejo parang off kasi hindi pa sha pressed..hehe..and mejo dim ng konti yung lights sa room ni winnette..

Super papayat ng entourage ko..my sister on top, ang waist line nun eh 24, bust line 29..nag-uumiyak nga sakin saying hindi man lang daw umabot ng line of 3 ang bust measurement nya..ibili ko daw sha ng magandang bra to cope up with the dress design..natawa talaga kame ng mom ko..but my sister was not able to fit her dress dahil asa makati sha..super nafrustrate nga ako na hindi nya masukat kasi I especially picked her gown design..gusto ko kasi ako ang magsuot..anywaste, her gown is not yet finished pa naman, wala pa yung “alampay”..hehe..hindi pa nakaattach kaya hindi makita yung dramatic effect..hehe..

Emy fitted hers..sobrang pumayat pa yung babaitang yun..eh sobrang payat na nga nya dati..dahil daw sa “2 weeks of delubyo” sa buhay nya..nafrustrate ako kasi kelangan din talaga ni emy magpads para gumanda ang dating nung gown..

Magaling din pala kong magtake ng measurements..dahil ako ang masukat ke winnette and ok naman ang fit sa kanya..hehe..konting adjustments lang para magcurve sa kanya..

Si Leanne eh payat din talaga..ewan ko ba nun sa dressmaker kung bakit walang straps yung gown nya..tube sha..nakakatakot na baka lumaglag..hehe..kaya pinaglagyan ko na lang para safe..

Isang flower girl gown lang ang pinagawa ko sa kanya..nung nakita ko, A-line ang design nya..which is, parang ayoko..dahil yung sa other flower girls ko eh balloon dress na me malaking ribbon sa likod..sinabihan ko na yung tatahi na ayusin..

Last but not the least, ang aking gown..na super saya ko with..me sinasabi si lexel na para daw malambot na kawayan..”petticoat” ko yun eh..sus! to those who don’t know, yun ang napapaballoon ng dress..sangkagandahan..ang galling talaga..tube dress ako pero hindi mahalay tignan kahit alam naman na “blessed” ako..hehe..ang hindi halatang tumaba ako at malaki ang tyan! Haha! Dahil me drape sa harapan na nakakadayang tignan..hehe..astig..

Sabi ni tita Carmen, pwede na daw hindi ako magnecklace..sabi ko too late coz lexel got me a set of pearl necklace and earrings last Saturday..yehey! ang bait! Dahil lang yun natuwa sha at hindi ganung kamahal ang wedding ring namen as he expected..sa ongpin kame bumili..alam nyo naman sa ongpin, mga Chinese ang me ari..and ang mommy ko ay half --- half crazy! Hehe! Hindi, lagi kasi yung pinagkakamalang intsik dahil singkit an singkit tapos maputi talaga..whehehe..sabi sa kanya nung me ari na 16-year old na girlet, “ate, Chinese ka?” ..sabi ng mom ko, “half lang”..if you could just see and hear her na nagsasalita in a Chinese way, matatawa ka talaga! So yun, we got one heck of a deal sa wedding ring na tulad ke ms gina! Hehe..tapos, nabili na nya ko ng accessories ko, me excess pa! hehe! To top it, me 2 free earrings pa na nakuha mom ko..hehe..everybody happy..

Nung suot ko yung gown, ewan ko pero parang feel ko na dapat ang ayos ng hair ko eh kulot..ayoko nung plantasado na nakaformal bun lang..kasi feeling ko, magmumukhang malaki ang mukha ko..haha! so naisip ko na talaga na magiging curly sha tapos simple bun..yung me loose ends sa banding harap para hindi mashadong formal..Hala, naexcite na talaga ko!

Lex’ barong is so good din..raya..bagay sa kanya kasi Chinese collar..hehe..pinilit kasi ng mom ko na dapat daw Chinese collar, kaya buong male entourage, nakachinese collar..pero hindi ganung kahappy ang aking magiging esposo dahil mas gusto daw nya yung pomelo na barong ng mga abay..hay! my goodness! Ipagpapalit ang raya sa organza! Crazy boy! Feeling nya daw kasi allergic sha sa strands ng raya, nahahaching daw sha..sus! sana naman hindi sha bumahin ng bumahin sa misa diba? Pero he looks good in that raya, really..sana maappreciate nya lang talaga na maganda yung barong nya..napakamahal nun ha! Hehe!

He wasn’t able to see my gown..ayaw nya..ewan ko kung naniniwala yung sa mga pamahiin..mukhang hindi naman eh..

Excited na ko!

Kaso nga, ayun, dahil sa basketball, mejo nasira ang day namen..dapat kasi magpapapicture kame for gazebo royale..dapat kasi punta kame ATC para humanap ng head dress ko..dapat kasi gagawa na ng bridal registry para hindi mahihirapan yung mga magbibigay ng gifts..kaso ewan ko na lang sa pagkaulyanin ni lexel at nakalimutan daw nya kaya pumayag shang magbasketball..it pissed me off! Dahil 2 weeks na lang..dapat ayusin na namen lahat..hindi pa nga super ayos yung CD..

Pero hindi din naman sha nagbasketball..next time I knew, we’re both dramatic sa room ko and talking everything over..i was the one telling everything that I hated, that I despised, that I never imagine him doing, that I don’t want him to ever do again. Tahimik lang sha…I’m thankful that he was..dahil gusto ko lang maglabas ng inis..i don’t need another person na makikipagsigawan sakin..lexel is never that kind of person..he’s someone who’ll just listen and hug you until you’re done talking..he’s the one who’s always apologizing and promising never to do that again, saying he never thought I would really feel so bad about it..nakakainis kasi I can’t help admiring his attitude kasi napakabait pa rin…I’m ranting with all my heart and he’s just there taking all the blame and swallowing his pride..so how can I stay mad ng matagal?

Everything got back to normal and we started talking about our wedding..pero parehong masakit ang ulo namen pati eyes..halos hindi na nga yun makauwi dahil ayaw ng magdrive..

Sana lang, maging ganun talaga kapatient and kabait si lexel..sana lang mabawasan kahit konti yung pagiging insensitive nya..hehe!

sleepless

2005-08-19T09:12:00.000+08:00

Before we were able to get our canonical interview last Wednesday, we need to undergo premarriage counseling..and sa counseling, inulet ng pari na hindi talaga parehas ang guys and girls..so girls must not impose on their husbands the things that they’re doing for the relationship..

Not because I usually brag him to come with me in every event I’m in, with my friends or colleagues, necessarily means na dapat ganun din sha..

Quezon city day ngayon..wala shang pasok..so yesterday we decided that he’ll spend the night in our house..pero awarding pala ng basketball nila..and champion yung team nila..sabi nya, “medyo malalate ako ng uwi, una ka ng kumain”..ok..mas mabuti..

Hours passed..8pm..then 9pm..then passed 10pm..wala pang ugong ng sasakyan sa tapat ng house namen..so I texted him asking where he is..sabi nya “paalis na dito sa office..nagkakantahan pa sila”..hindi na ko nagreply..kasi pauwi na nga..

While waiting for him, natawagan ko na yung florist namen for our entourage..nagkabargain-nan na kame..nakapag-usapan na ng kung anu-anong makakapagpaganda sa arrangement..wala pa ring lexel..

He goes out with his barkada, to play basketball and billards..most of the time, nakakauwi na sha sa kanila passed 1am..pero ewan ko, parang hindi naman ako mashadong affected dati..

11pm came..wala pa rin..called him kasi baka kung ano ng nangyari..hindi sinasagot..called again..mailbox..called again..ayun sinagot..asa office pa daw sila, pauwi pa lang..sus!

Bakit sinabi pa nung 10pm na paalis na daw when hindi pa? guys!!!

Ewan ko..ganun pala mag-alala..nakakainis..lalo na when you’ve come up with a thought na maybe it skipped his mind that you’re waiting for him to be home safe..ikaw na me pasok pa ng maaga tomorrow..hay nakakainis..

Hindi talaga ako makatulog kahit na pinipilit ko..that added to the inis..

Pero ewan ko ba, kahit binigyan ko ng cold treatment yung lalaking yun, parang wala lang..kasi siguro nasanay na sha sakin..kasi super impatient talaga ko..and madaling mainis..hindi nya lang siguro talaga naisip na nag-alala ko..hay, lalaki!

:: shh ::

2005-08-16T10:47:00.000+08:00

Super natuwa talaga ko na si sarah ang kinuha kong emcee sa reception namen..sobrang dameng alam nyang gimmick about the event, nagulat talaga ko when she called me to detail everything out..nung kinuwento ko ke lexel, naaliw din sha..pero shempre di ko pwedeng ikwento na dito ang mga gagawing “spice” ni sarah sa event, kasi hindi na magiging surprise..and para there’s something to look forward to na rin yung mga nagbabasa nitong blog ko..para panoorin ang mga stuffs na magyayari sa reception after ng dinner (kasi daw, usually, guests leave after dinner..ngek)..

One thing lang siguro na sasabihin ko dito, sarah’s gift to us will be a flash presentation..shempre kelangan namen shang bigyan ng pictures namen ni lexel when we’re kids, growing, graduates, and together..ako, napakakonti ng kiddie picts ko na nakatabi sakin so I have to ask my mom, titas and grannie about pictures..though sangkatutak naman ang high school and college pictures ko..pati pictures of myself na kuha sa webcam and phone cam kasi ako eh mejo vain..haha! pero shempre hindi naman pwedeng puros mukha ko ang makita sa flash presentation diba? So hindi ko pwedeng ipalagay ang sangkatutak kong pictures ke sarah..

When I was collecting pics, narealize ko na lex and I have very few pictures together..though ilang beses nyang in-attempt na picturan ako or something which will lead to having pictures of the two of us..ewan ko, mahiyain ako bigla sa camera kapag sha na me hawak nun..haha! nainggit tuloy ako sa kapatid ko, sangakatutak ang pictures nila na nakasave sa My Pictures nya..everytime ata nasa bahay si kim, picture sila ng picture! Hehe! Inisip ko, ayos ang flash presentation nila sa wedding nila pag nagkataon..anywaste, ok lang yun..

Late last Sunday night nung nagscan kame ng pictures ni lexel..natuwa ako sa mga baby pictures nya..kasi ang kulet nyang tignan..kahit yung pictures nya together with his barkada, ang kukulet din..nung pinakita ko nga sa mom ko, hindi nya akalaing me ganung side si lexel..kasi napakatahimik nun sa house namen..di yun nagsasalita pag hindi siya kinakausap..kaya madalas sa room ko lang yun, nakahiga..akala tuloy nila mommy mahiyain sha..naku, kung alam lang nila! Haha!

High school picts. Meron shang album..mejo natuwa ako kasi nakita ko sila nila ian..lexel really loves his friends, tuwang tuwa shang kasama sa kulitan yung mga yun..kaya super nanghinayang talaga ako na for quite some time, hindi sila nagbabatian ni ian..anywaste, nakita ko din yung pictures nya together with Katrina (uy, magselos ba daw?)..hehe..hindi naman sa nagselos, shempre there are nerves touched seeing them together (grad and grad ball)..pero shempre papaobvious ko ba ke lexel yun, na insecure ako? Whehehe! Shempre hindi! So I joked around, deadma lang sha..lagi naman ganun yun..

I saw one piture of frances..grad ball..wala akong nafeel..ni slight feeling of jealousy, wala..hehe..

Naisip ko tuloy, will I ever get over that slight punch in my chest everytime I think of Katrina (who is a good friend of mine from way back high school up until now)? I don’t have a reason para continuously maging affected sa thought na yun..they’ve been through, if there was ever been a “them” kasi “they” don’t really happened..ewan ko ba, ganun naman ata talaga..girls don’t get over their SO’s past love..well..babae nga ako..

worry no more

2005-08-11T11:27:00.000+08:00

i've been looking for someone who i can really look up to and this morning i'm so lucky to have chanced that person..

telecon for project STRIVER and i've met sir JV on the hallway..dun na lang daw kame sa office ng boss nya makikipagtelecon..so i have to meet the so-called R&D boss -- Bella Javier.

i've heard so much about her..she's the one handling AP powder beverages PLUS cheese and grocery..o diba? kung hindi ka pa naman "halimaw" sa kagalingan nun..best thing i've heard, she's a filipina..

we've entered the room..so knows me, i don't expect that..maybe because the project has been branded to me, hehe, being the one handling it on the plant (mejo me kayabangan din talaga ko..aba baket, akin naman talaga yun..noone kniws about China Spoonables export more than me in Sucat Plant)..

Can't help admiring her room, ganda ng computer, LCD monitor, wireless keyboard and mouse..on the side, ganda pa ng laptop..hehe..tapos nakaPDA phone pa..hanep sa pagiging techie and on the go..

pag tingin ko sa wall, she has framed pictures of her kids..1 girl na nakatoga, 1 guy na nakatoga din, isang guy na nakaformal attire..singkit lahat..sa likod nya, sa me family picture sila..astig..sa side table, sangkatutak din ang framed family pictures nila..sa pictures pa lang, makikita mo na na super saya and close ng family nila, the pictures tell it all..nakakatuwa..

the way she talks, the way she jokes over her colleagues, mararamdaman mo yung warm attitude nya..ang bait..

and she has high hopes for this country..she keeps on telling "we need this business to boost the philippine economy"..or "you guys must go shopping here to help our economy"..sobrang konti na lang ng taong ganun na nakikita ko..halos lahat, gustong mag-abroad, hindi ko alam kung bakit pero ang daming nagpapakamatay makapunta lang sa abroad..sus! hindi na naawa sa pilipinas..

got a few moments of chat with her..her attitude and achievements are results of her having a good relationship with her husband and kids..masaya sha sa bahay kaya nagagawa nya ng maayos ang trabaho nya, kaya maganda ang attitude nya towards other people..

oo nga naman..kapag wala kang problema sa bahay, hindi ka irritable..you can focus on your job well enough para tumaas ka ng tumaas, and you deal with other people with a smile..

with just 2 hours of being together with her (telecon and chat), i've learned so much..

na hindi ako dapat mag-isip ng hindi magandang future with me and lexel..kasi walang rason for me to be paranoid, napakabait na tao ng magiging asawa ko, responsable pa..

na hindi dapat mashadong apektado sa trabaho..wag maharass, wag mairita..kasi ang stress nakakatanda..hehe..tutal nagagawa ko naman ng maayos ang work ko, on time..no reason for me to be bothered kung anong kinabukasan ko sa company na 'to..i've learned so much just by working with people like bot de borja and jayvee saqueton..no matter what, i know i'm more than equipped para lumanggoy sa industriya..

nothing to worry about..i know i'll have a good life ahead..

relationships

2005-08-10T09:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday i realized how lucky i am to be together with someone like lexel..it's not the first time i've thought about it though kasi i've always believed naman na he's one hell of a guy..pero yesterday morning, naappreciate ko sha more..

i received one call from one of my best friends..she's crying real hard..as she told me her story, hindi ko maisip na pwedeng mangyari sakin yun..i wanted to cry for her and shout at her na iwan na nya and wag na nyang habulin ang pesteng lalaking yun..

but she loves the guy so much to a fault..

ngayon pa lang, ang sour na ng relationship nila..ngayon pa lang nakikita mo ng walang pupuntahan kahit pa magtagal pa sila ng hundred years..hindi ko alam why she's choosing to be with him kahit na she's being harassed mentally, physically and worst, emotionally..

natatakot ako for her and sa future nila together..what if yung blindness nya to address the current problem eh would end up the two of them raising a family? pano yung kids nila? pano kung mambabae pa rin yung pesteng lalaking yun kahit me asawa na sha?

yun ang greatest fear ko so far..yung mag end up ako sa isang another broken family..i've seen it happened to my mom and dad, my uncle been married twice and now has 2 girlfriends..but i guess i'm more than prepared for it..dahil nakita ko na kung papano, ano ang dapat gawin kahit pa hindi yun ang tama..

siguro kaya paranoid ako..kaya minsan inaaway ko si lexel for no reason at all..kasi parang hindi makatotohanan na ganun sha kabait..pero wala akong magawa eh, ganun talaga sha kabait eh, kelangan ko na lang tanggapin yun and maging thankful na isa sha sa mga matitinong lalaking nilikha ni God..hehe..swerte ko, alam ko..napakadaming taong nagsasabi sakin nyan..

kagabi as i detailed the story to him about my friend, ayaw na nyang makinig..andung ipilit niyang magbillards na lang kame or text twist..kasi daw paulit-ulit lang ang problema ng kaibigan kong yun..paulit ulit kasi hindi nila ina-address ng tama ang issue nila..and detailing the story, nag-iisip na naman daw ako ng mga panget na bagay..hehe..naiisip nun, malamang lang, pag lumalim-lalim pa ng konti ang pag-iisip ko tungkol sa problemang yun, sha na ang mapagdidiskitahan ko..hehe..

i can't help feeling scared and paranoid though wala talaga sa character ng fiance ko yung bugbugin ako (hehe..minsan nga yung "gestures of love" ko eh namimisinterpret ng ibang tao as pagiging mabigat ang kamay kaya parang in the eyes of other people, ako ang brutal..haha!)...though walang event sa buhay ko since we got together na pinayagan nyang i-go through ko ng mag-isa..though ngayon napakaimposible na mambabae sha..pero who knows in the future diba? napakapanget ng thoughts na 'to..hehe..sabi ni lexel, yung ganitong line of thinking ko daw ang anay sa relationship namen..hehe..oo nga..

natawa nga ako nung tinanong nung counselor namen sa pre-cana seminar kung anong madalas nameng pag-awayan..actually, yun na nga..madalas ko shang awayin kapag feeling ko in the future eh magiging different na sha than today..hehe..tangengots talaga ko..

i've asked him kung hindi nya ba ko naisip na palitan..in a matter-of-factly tone, he answered "bakit naman kita papalitan?"..oo nga naman..knowing how sensible my soon-to-be hubbie is, walang reason para palitan nya ko, unless ako mismo ang gumawa ng rason para palitan nya ko..

khaye

2005-08-05T20:02:00.000+08:00

my sister and me fight a lot!! aminado ako dun..kasi hindi kame parehas ng outlook sa buhay..so anong mangyayari pag pinagsama mo yung 2ng taong magkakontra? diba sasabog!? hehe..but not really..there are times na okay naman talaga kame..

my sister is the homey-girlet type..she cooks well, she knows how to take care of alfie and alfie listens to her (as in takot pag sumigaw na sha), she maintains the house kasi almost everyday wala kame ni mom sa bahay..basta, she's a a housewife-material..I AM NOT..

i am the bossy one..senyorita sa bahay..siguro kasi mom spoiled me a lot..or dahil nasanay ako na hindi ako iniistorbo kasi nag-aaral ako..dun daw kasi ako magaling, yung mag-aral. so now na graduate na ko and has passed the board exam, nagtatrabaho naman ako sa isang demanding na company na halos iharass ako everyday..so when i come home every night, kain lang tapos pahinga na..kinabukasan pag gising ko, maliligo na ko para pumasok sa office..

sha mahiyain..ako, hehe, oozing with confidence (ayokong sabihing makapal ang mukha!)

my sister never wanted to follow my lead..she wants to live her own life, who wouldn't? nakakainis nga naman yung comparison..i hate that too..kaya yun, lahat ng gusto ng mom ko na ginagawa ko, ayaw ni khaye..hehe..whether it's being on top of the class, joining church organizations, or even choosing a responsible and decent other half..

siguro kaya nga kame laging nag-aaway..dahil sa comparison..hay naku, nakakainis talaga! or siguro kasi mabilis din talaga akong maasar, eh grabe yung mang-asar..kaya nya kong paiyakin just by throwing words at me..

pero ngayon, super thankful ko lang talaga sa kanya..shempre, tinutulungan ako sa wedding preps and everything...yung mga stuffs na hindi ko na maasikaso, sha gumagawa like yung pagdidikit nung tags sa invitations, walang reklamo yun! hehe!

ewan ko lang kung binabasa pa ng kapatid ko tong blog ko na to..dati, lagi, ngayon, di ko talaga alam..siguro kung diary pa 'to talaga, naging interesado pa yun, para lang asarin ako..

pero khaye, no matter what, you're the only sister i've got..and kahit na lagi mo kong ginagalit, i love you just the same..nakakainis ka lang talaga pag ayaw mong makinig when it's for your own good ang mga sinasabi namen sayo..basta, thank you sa lahat! abangan mo na lang ang christmas gift mo from me..haha! paasahin ba?!

idealism

2005-08-05T15:22:00.000+08:00

aside from tp, na i've described as somewhat "ideal" when it comes to relationship, i've chanced to meet another one --- rommel cervera.

his relationship with our barely-one-month intern has been a whirl wind..hehe..ginulat ang lahat, di pala ginulat, GINULANTANG. and almost everyone is against. mainly for being concerned.

he never frown on even a time na tinutukso namen shang "teddy bear" (that's what joey calls him).. or ginagawa nameng laughing stuff yung "mel and joey"..or basta kahit anong pang-aasar sa kanya pag asa cutting room kame..at kahit na inaalaska sha, he keeps on telling us yung mga date nila ni joey, with a lighten-up face kapag mine-mention nya yung name ni joey.

kinuwento pa nya na once, bumili daw sha ng teddy bear for joey sa blue magic..he let her claim it pretending na me nakalimutan lang sha dun..when joey claimed it, the baggage guy told her something na pinapasabi ni sir mel..hello?! iset-up daw ba?

tapos kanina..sabi nya, "carol, ang panget ko dito o"..sabay abot sakin ng isang printed picture..pag tingin ko picture nila ni joey. "yan ang ilalagay ko sa friendster ko"..hehe..kakatouch! ilan boyfriends na lang ba ngayon ang naglalagay ng picture ng girlfriends nila sa friendster account nila? oo nga, in a relationship sila, pero ayaw ipakita kung kanino..or not na lang sa friendster, iilan na lang ngayon yung naglalagay ng picture ng SO nila sa wallet nila..well, sir mel is different..

and take note, me friendster account sha! hehe! naging gf lang niya si joey, nagkafriendster na! speakign of such, nakalimutan ko pa nga pala shang i-add..i'll do it later this night anyway..

so joey, swerte mo! kakaunti lang yang tulad ni melong!

simple pleasures

2005-08-04T15:38:00.000+08:00

natuwa talaga kame ni jing..dahil ok na ang office space namen -- accessible sa mga process engineers na we usually work with dahil isang ikot lang ng silya namen, whacha! andun na sila..tapos we have our own filing cabinet to keep our binders. hindi na masikip yung tables namen dahil sa sangkatutak na project and activity binders. and to top it all, ngayon, dumating ang aming movable drawer!! as in kakatuwa. meron ng space for our kikay office stuffs like post-its and everything..pati notebooks and logbooks dun na..and shempre pati bag and shoes kasya sa lowest level..take note, me lock! haha!

ewan ko..ang ganda lang tignan..as in ang linis ng mesa namen..pag 5S+ talaga (o ms edna, wala ka ng makocomment sa kaayusan ng cubicles namen ni jing..kila ms gina and sir mel na lang..haha!)..soon, sa susunod na audit at sa mga susunod pa, we're very much positive na kame na lagi ang 5S+ champion! bakit? kasi ang ganda ang ayos na ng office namen..pati yung office ng contracots, maayos na, meron din silang movable drawers! haha!

tp..

2005-08-03T13:37:00.000+08:00

i failed to say goodbye..dahil siguro ang busy busy ko nun..dahil inaayos ko yung capacity analysis ng OB, and gumagawa ako ng program para hanapin ang peak volume etc sa excel para hindi na manual ang paghahanap and pagkakacalculate..kaya hindi ko mashadong binigyan ng pansin ang last email, pati ang last joke line, pati yung "goodbye"..

aaminin ko..nakakamiss din pala si tp..kasi ang kulet nun eh..ang galing mabwisit! hehe..ngayon natatahimik na ang mundo namen..

tp, nabasa ko yung resignation letter mo..haha! ang plastic mo!!!

dibale tips, promise, sa 1st baby, ninong ka talaga, kya dapat bumaba k h?

1st wave

2005-07-29T13:55:00.000+08:00

one of the saddest news i've heard was just this morning..sir bot is no longer my boss..kraft re-organization..

i should be happy for him, he got promoted..he's now the manufacturing manager..one level SG up..and ililibre nya kame..

what's sad is i will really miss him..the sangkatutak na utos yet nauutos nya in a not-so-frustrating way..na sa dame ng inaasikaso ko, kahit naiirita na ko, hindi ko makuhang mainis..hehe..

sir bot is the ultimate manager..the best manager that kraft could ever have..and how many times i've blogged here about being thankful to be trained by him..

"basta, kahit hindi mo na ko boss, invited pa rin ako sa kasal mo ha.."

that made a tear to almost fall..

but i know, no matter what, he'll always be there..

a toast for pia

2005-07-28T09:56:00.000+08:00

all my tkm sis will be shocked to know..other than eunice maybe..

pia has been as almost together with eunice..parehas silang taga seton nugn elementary..every year eh classmates nung high school sa masci, where we all met..then nung college sa UP, BS Bio talaga sha, BS ChE talaga si eunice, but after a year ba yun, pia shifted to chem engg, kaya nabuo ang TKM..

then guess what..since eunice now works at p&g japan, pia will be there soon..same, p&g japan..sa home and fabric care..

kaya si pia eh hindi na magiging bridesmaid sa akign wedding..sa dahilang yun..na hindi nya sinabi sakin talaga na p&g japan yun for the reason na sha lang ang nakakaalam..

and nagulat ako na hindi rin alam ni dionne..sinabi ko lang sa kanya nung binigay ko yung fabric and nagpasukat sha sa mom ni jacqui..

so pia, no reasons talaga para magalit or magtampo talaga ko sayo for not attending my wedding..anyway, it's a career move..i'm happy for you..

sana lang pia, sa japan, makahanap ka na ng love life..hehe..

a letter to a dear friend

2005-07-26T12:21:00.000+08:00

hello,

you told me not to tell anybody about the stuffs you texted me..wala akong pagsasabihan, ilalagay ko lang sa blog ko! hehe! joke! no, i won't go into details, just the lessons i've learned with what happened to you..

everybody wants to be loved..nung wala akong bf, super talagang atat kong magkaron..hehe..aminado..and halos lahat naman ng single na kakilala ko, though it's fun to be free to do things on your own, you decide on your schedules and all those stuffs, at the middle of the night, gusto pa rin nilang i-share yung life nila with someone..

someone not just ordinary..someone they could have some future together..bakit sino ba ang me gustong mag-aksaya ng time sa isang patapon na relationship? lalo na mga girls, diba?

ilang beses ko kasing tinanong kung bakit sha..kasi kitang kita naman namen na mali talaga ang set-up nyo..and tama ka, no matter how you pushed it, kung hindi talaga, kawawa lang kayong dalawa..

pero evident that you loved him talaga..and maybe, still loving him..kasi kahit alam mong sha ang me kasalanan, pinagtatanggol mo pa rin sha..samen..

but you know what, super bilib din ako sayo..siguro, that's one thing i can't do for lexel..hindi ko kayang imeet him at the middle..i'm the one always bailing out when the situation gets tough..siguro dahil sinanay nya kong laging ideal ang set-up and if an event fell out of being ideal, sha ang gumagawa ng paraan para ayusin yun..hindi ko kayang magswallow ng pride kung alam kong ako ang tama..i can't apologize for stuffs na wala akong kasalanan..

sabi nga ni ms liza (officemate ko dito sa kraft), isa lang ang key to maintain a good relationship -- dapat pag galit ang isa, mahinahon yung isa...pag sabay kayo, dead end kayo..

walang girl na hindi selosa..kaya normal ka..madaming lalaking insensitive..kaya mejo normal naman sha..

most of the time, dapat me wake-up call ka sa sarili mo..madalas kasi, we tend to see what we want to see, not what's real..

basta, ingat..ihahanap kita ng date..hehe!

bridesmaids part 2

2005-07-26T12:14:00.000+08:00

pia backed out last wednesday..and hindi ko alam kaagad ang magiging readtion ko nung nabasa ko ang text nya..i almost panicked kasi on the way na ang invites..nakakahiya naman sa ipapalit ko kung wala sha sa list of entourage diba?

kung sinu-sino na tinawagan ko..mom ko, lexel, and even jackie..para lang i-vent ang aking frustration..

grabe ka talkaga pia!! kung hindi lang kita mahal, sinabunutan na kita! haha! pasalamat na lang talaga kme na hindi pa napi-print ang invites..nahabol ko pa..

kaya pia, hindi ako mashadong nagalit..hehe..kasi nagawan ng paraan..thanks glaiza, sinalo mo si pia..

kung ako hindi nagalit, violent reaction ang barkada ni lexel..kasi ikaw lang ang inaabangan nun sa kasal namen..hehe..me isang tao din dito sa kraft ang nagsasabing pilitin kita..hehe..sino kaya yun?

hoping pa ko na papayag si dionne na magspag straps na lang..kasi mas gusto na daw ni amor yung ganung design compared sa me short sleeves..palalagyan ko na lang sana si dionne ng overcoat na hindi see-through, just to provide some sleeves on the dress..

kaso, it's really against her religion..gusto pa ngang magback out..kaya hindi ko na pinush..sana lang, amor or eunice would be so kind na tumulad na lang ng design with dionne and jacqui, para at least 3 bridesmaids pero design..please sana merong pumayag sa inyo, eunice and amor..

fitting day

2005-07-26T11:57:00.000+08:00

nung sunday, 1st fitting ng entourage namen kina lexel..ang inggay sa house, grabe! nagsama-sama ang mga barkada ni lexel and you just can't imagine kung gaano kagulo..haha! nakakatuwa lang na ever supportive silang lahat to us..sinabi ko na ayaw ko silang naka-khaki pants, na dapat black..dahil gusto ko maganda ang pictures..imagine kung me naka-khaki, sagwa nun..

mga kids na pamangkin ni lex sa cousins nya are there too..si jed (little groom) eh super cute (gwapo ng anak mo, joanne)..pero nagwoworry lang kame ni lexel na baka hindi lumakad yun sa kasal..kasi nag-alboroto nung susukatan na sha..we could only hope na maging super bibo nya like tedted para ok na ang lahat..

emy was there..i'm happy for her and brian kasi everyone can see the big improvement sa kanilang relationship..and in fairness kahit payat sha ngayon, nagiging sexy shang tignan..hehe! kaya siguro tumitino na si brian (hello bri!)..

bob is good..hindi nga lang kame mashadong nakapag-usap..kasi busy ako sa kakaasikaso sa mga bisita..but his relationship with i-thought-was-not-good-enough-for-him eh ok naman pala..going strong..hehe..nagkamali ata ako ng perception about karen..well, i could only wish the best for them both kasi wala na kong mashadong time para matulungan si joson sa mga heartaches nya..but he can be assured that i'll be there for him anytime (naniniwala ka pa ba dito bob?)..

patrick is absent as well as winnette and gammy..mga doctor kasi..and hindi makaalis ng hospital para sa fitting na 'to..hehe..pero ok lang, shempre ayaw din naman nila na hindi sila masukatan..patrick is responsible enough to send his barong para yun na lang ang pattern (thanks, pat)..and nakuha ko na rin ang body measurements ni winnette kagabi..hopefully within this week eh makunan na rin ng measurements si gammy..

and i have to thank lex' dad for what he has done last sunday..kasi kame ni lexel eh ngarag pa dahil nagpunta pa kame sa invites hoping makukuha namen yun para madistribute na..pero me mali..ang mga ninong na imbes na "mr" eh ginawang "mrs"..so mega disaster yun diba kaya binalik pa namen and pinaayos..we're thinking na iutos na lang sa maid ang pagluluto ng spaghetti..unfortunately eh hindi pala marunong..thank God mabait si leanne to start it..and eventually, "dad" took over..grabe..nakakahiya talaga..as in super bait..lexel's mom is not yet around kasi..sa august pa uwi..

to all of those interested

2005-07-20T12:03:00.000+08:00

kasi po, mahirap sumagot sa text..and hehe, paulet-ulet na lang ang mga questions na tinatanong sakin at sinasagot ko regarding my wedding with lexel..

eto pang si lory (hi lory) eh major interested din..haha! sa mga questions na tinext mo, malamang pag sinagot ko yan eh me follow ups ka pa diba? kaya ginagawa ko to kahit sangkatutak na capacity analysis ang dapat kong tapusin ngayong day na to dahil absent ako yesterday..para pag me nagtanong, refer ko na lang dito..

1. Money:
Shempre dapat meron nang ganito before pa lang maconceive ang idea of getting married..napabasic na thinking..kasi kahit gahol sa time, basta me money, madaling magpakasal..Parents are good sources pero asa pride yan..Kung magbigay, thank you..pero kame, we managed on our own..actually, ke lexel most of it..eh mas madami naman shang money talaga sakin..Pero magastos talaga magpakasal..

2. Timings:
All the preps were started only late May this year..ngayon malapit ng matapos lahat..bayad na lahat except yung mga small stuffs na iko-complete lang by August. Pag meron kang sangkatutak na connections, madali lang magplano..pero nakakapagod..

3. Venue:
We love to spend it sana sa Fernwoods..kaso yun ang disadvantage ng preparing it at a short time..madami ng nabook..so wala na kameng choice other than to go for the 2nd best garden reception venue which is Gazebo Royale..Unlike Fernwood, nag-aalow sila ng hindi accredited na caterers, though you need to pay corkage fee..and meron na silang built-in PA system..Rental fee? halos parehas lang ng smallest garden ng Fernwood..Terms of payment is 50% down, 50% 3 months before the wedding and Php 10,000 security bond a month before. Para saan ang security bond? Just in case magexceed ka sa number of guests mo or sa allotted time sa inyo which is 5 hours..They provide guest passes na bibigay mo sa mga aattend..

Walang sariling chapel ang Gazebo so we opted to go to Our Lady of Mt Carmel Parish..anywaste, their package includes naman the choir and flowers plus you don't need aircon dahil malaki yung place..unlike Fernwood na kulob kaya wala kang choice than to have it airconditioned..Malaki ang difference sa price..To have a comfortable ceremony at St Francis of Asisi Chapel (Fernwood), you need to cash out Php 30,000 while sa Mt Carmel, Php 8,000 lang..

4. Catering Services

We engaged in a number of food tasting na naenjoy talaga namen ni lexel..pero shempre you have to go with the budget as well as quality of the food. Ours is Swan Catering, accredited sa Gazebo..Usually good caterers amount to Php 80,000..Swan, hindi umabot ng ganun pero tulad lang ng ammenities na kasama..

5. Gowns and barongs

Relative ng isang ninang namen ang gagawa ng aking gown..made of piña jusi so everybody can expect na hindi sha white..lexel's barong is made of raya..

Since super close ko ang girl entourage ko, we provided them just the fabric and the design and all of them are kind enough na sila ang magpapatahi ng dresses nila..thank you sa inyo ha! yung mga guys, close din ni lexel kaso i'm very much particular sa kind ng barong..i want it frosted organza dyed with our motif. pati nga ang undershirt na race eh kame na magpo-provide for them pareho-pareho..baka kasi maglagay sila ng sando or elbow-length na shirt tapos white pa! diba disaster yun?! kaya ayaw na nameng magrisk..

6. Flowers

Since the church has flowers on their package, mej ok na pero magdadagdag pa rin kame..Dangwa is the best place ksi ok price nila, guaranteed pa kasi me contacts kame dun na madami ng friends ni ona ang nagpagawa sa contact na yun, i've seen some pictures of her arrangements, pati yung sa entourage nya..astig! buti na lang hindi ko pa nafirm up ang deal ko dun sa glorietta kundi nagsisi talaga ko..

7. Invites

Since we wanted abaca and QP express don't have reaources for that (ewan ko kung bakit), go kame sa recto..haha! first time ko dun..and nung sinama ko si lexel dun para icheck namen ang lay-out, halos mag-away kame sa directions and kawalan ng parking..salamat na lang sa isetann..for pick up na yun sa saturday..for distribution na along with the directional maps and guest passes on sunday, july 24.

8. Souveniers

Isa sa mga pinakamadaling gawin pero hindi pa namen nagagawa..hehe..actually, meron tita si lexel na me business na ganito so malamang dun na kame magpapagawa..kaya hindi namen mashadong iniintindi..

9. Photos and Videos

Gusto kong mag-Ariel Javelosa pero ang mahal..so yung tested na lang namen na photographer/videographer ang kinuha..ok naman ang package so fine!

10. Ring

Ok tong bilin pag malapit na malapit na yung wedding..para hindi mawala..mahirap na, hindi naman mura ang mga ganitong bagay..

11. Hotel

We're thinking of Rembrandt para malapit na lang sa venue. Magpapareserve na rin kame dun..

12. Make-up

I go for the person na laging gumagawa ng make-up ko --- Eddie Bruan..Mahal ang wedding packages ng make-up. Usually eh Php 15,000 for 3 persons only..nakakaloka..

13. Papers to accomplish

Bago ang lahat, ayusin ang MARRIAGE LICENSE..required yan ng church..actually, naoverlook namen ni lexel kaya yesterday lang kame kumuha..buti na lang at parang pag-aari ng pamilya namen ang city hall ng makati sa sangkadamihan ng contacts namen dun..isang counseling lang in-attend-an namen, yung 2nd, pinapirmahan lang without even attending..

Kung akala nameng lusot na kme sa parents' consent dahil kame'y parehong 22 at malapit ng mag23, nagkamali kame! dahil pag below 25 ka, kelangan ng parents' advise..since my father had long been gone, mom has to file pa affidavit of unknown whereabouts..buti na lang the night before eh dumating na dad ni lexel from new york kaya nakapirma sha..pero ang mom nya eh sa aug25 pa uuwi..kaya naggawa pa kame ng affidavit of consent na nanotarized kahit wala dun ang dad nya to swear na alam ng mom ni lex and they have no objections..

And kung magkaiba kayo ng city, dapat eh dadaan sa parehong city hall nyo ang papers, which hindi namen ginawa dahil nga sa time constraint..pero pinayagan na din..hehe..

Isang kagulat gulat lang ang price ng aking cedula na Php 228.00. Gosh, eh diba sais lang yun? dahil lang nagta-trabaho na ko, hmp!

Pero ayun, naayos naman namen before 2pm kahapon ang aming marriage license and for pick up na lang yun sa aug1.

Kelangan din ng Certificate of Singleness or No Marriage..sa NSO yan kinukuha..pero sa lahat ng cityhall eh me NSO, so nakakuha kame sa makati..processing takes 3-4weeks..Samen, for pick up na sa aug 2.

Dapat din ang baptismal and confirmation certificates are issued within 3 months ng schedule wedding date..si lexel eh sa pasay pa bininyagan pero naayos nya the afternoon nung dumating sha galing japan..hehe..walang kapaguran yun eh..

Me marriage banns din na ipopost sa parishes nyo for 3 weeks..parang sinasabi na "si ganito ay ikakasal ke ganito, kung me kontra, punta kayo sa parish office at magfile ng pagkontra nyo"..hehe..

14. Seminars/Counseling to Attend

A. Pre-marriage Counseling
2 times kasi yung isa requirement sa marriage license, yung isa church ang magbibigay. Tinatanong lang kung bakit kayo magpapakasal, mga expectations, bakit me mga battered wives, bakit nagbababae ang mga mister, ano ang usual causes of miunderstandings.

B. Family Planning
Requirement para ulet sa lisensya. Hindi namen in-attend-an dahil alam na namen yun..

C. Canonical Interview
Parang one-on-one counseling with a priest.

Ayun, sangkatutak..pero once decided kang magpakasal, madali lang yan lahat..hehe..pero i won't be a hypocrite, ilang beses akong umiyak dahil sa problema about preparations..nakakapagod kasi meron din akong work..

Lex's dad asked me last night, the first night we saw each other since he arrived from new york, kung kamusta daw ba ang preparations. Sabi ko konting-konti na lang, malapit na matapos. Sabi ni lexel, bayad na halos lahat. Napasmile lang sha eh. Ask ulet sakin kung sino daw katulong ko. Sabi ko si lexel..Natawa sha. Binawi ko, sabi ko mom ko and friends nun..Sabi nya, kasi daw lexel's mom will arrive just in time for the wedding. Buti nga makakauwi..kasi nakaschedule talagang umuwi yun sa december pa kaya pinapamove nya dati yung date. Sinabi lang kasi namen ni lexel sa parents nya the day before the left for the states (june 6) kaya talagang kasurprise surprise na naayos namen lahat ni lexel without any help from them..hehe..wala lang..

If you're interested about the honeymoon, tanong nyo na lang ke lexel --- yun eh kung magkakaguts kayong tanungin sha! haha!

strike two on alfie

2005-07-18T10:54:00.000+08:00

sunday and we went to attend some wedding preps again..pagkatapos nun eh naglunch lang kame, natulog saglit ni lexel kasi by 3pm, uwi na nya ko dahil me basketball game sha..

so 3:30 pa lang eh nasa bahay na ko, buti na lang andun sila cheechai and ona sa house kaya hindi mashadong malungkot..

lexel needs to be with his barkada if only to spend some alone time..hehe..though me mga kalokohan din mga friends nun, hindi naman sila BI..and basketball and billards lang naman, the two sports that lexel loves doing..and matagal na rin since last shang nagbillards..wala na ring exercise mashado yung lalaking yun dahil busy sa work..

pero hindi ko napigilang tawagan sha kahit he's at the middle of a gig dahil ke alfie, me kung anong lumabas na red stuff sa kanyang organ na kinatakot ko talaga..kaya ba matamlay si alfie since nung saturday dahil me sakit sha? baka kelangan kong dalhin sa vet at the middle of the night..

nung sinabi ko ke lexel, he started laughing and told me "honey, that's part of his genitals..ganun kapag nagkakaron sha ng erection..mawawala rin yan"

ngek..nawala rin nga..tangengots ko..napagtawanan pa ko..malay ko ba? malay ko ba regarding genitals ng aso hindi naman ako vet..and first time kong magkaron ng lalaking aso no!

poor alfie

2005-07-18T08:23:00.000+08:00

hay naku, grabe the saturday that was!

dinala namen ni lexel si alfie sa vet..actually, last month pa yun nakasked for his 4th shot pero dahil wala akong driver (hehe) ay hindi ko nadala..and hindi ko na rin makayanan na tignan si alfie sa ganung kalagayan, nangangati lagi, kasi me fleas..and natatakot ako na bakamagdusa ang legs ko at ng kapatid ko dahil dun..

so yun, dinala na namen sa vet si alfie na for the first time eh nakabag..haha..dahil takot nga akong mapunta sakin ang fleas niya..

pagbaba namen sa kotse, me dalawang matandang babae pa na nagsabi "uy, ang cute-cute naman ng puppy mo"..sa loob-loob ko, mamya ganyan pa rin kaya kacute yan? hehe..

so i told the vet na for 4th shot nga si alfie tapos me problem about fleas..pinagroom na rin namen para mas ok..

we waited for 5 hours..buti na lang malapit lang kina lexel at nakapanood pa kame ng "the jacket" sa dvd..ayaw ng mom ko na umikli ang buhok ni alfie, super loves nya ang asong yun, mas love pa daw nya yun kesa sakin..haha! so tanong ng tanong ang matanda about sa aso..tinawagan pa ang vet para lang makasigurado..

so nung pumunta na kame sa clinic, tinawag ko "alfie"..tapos there's this small dog na almost hairless maliban sa buntot at tenga nya na lumapit sakin..then sabi nung groom boy "sha po ba?"..ha? ang nasabi ko lang "pano ko malalaman eh kinalbo nyo sha!"..

the vet told me na si alfie nga yun, kinalbo para makita kong completely gone ang fleas..he explained to me na yung mga fleas na kakabit sa kanya eh kakalas din daw agad because of the medication..malamang daw galing pa yun dun sa mom and kasama nyang dogs nung binili namen sha kasi wala naman kameng ibang dogs sa house..

so yun..awang awa ako ke alfie..pwede kong picture-an pero ayokong gawin..dahil ayokong ipost dito ang itsura nya..ang tamlay nga eh, kasi hindi na nku-cute-an ang mga tao sa kanya, minsan kasi pinagtatawanan pa sha..lagi tuloy natutulog, para makalimutan nya sigurong ang panget nya ngayon..

alfie is such a cuddly pup..as in malikot, sampa ng sampa, nilalaro whatever ang itapon mo sa kanya..and he loves posing for pictures..kaya parang namatayan talaga sha nung nawalan sha ng balahibo..

don't worry alf, hahaba ulet ang balahibo mo, ang handsome pup ka na naman ulet..

he's back

2005-07-13T13:25:00.000+08:00

lexel is so back..and ang una nameng ginawa eh spend time sa couch while watching Monsters In-Law..hehe..mejo at least dapat maging thankful ako na hindi psychotic and possessive ang magiging future mom-in-law ko..pasalamat ako at kahit only guy si lexel ay hindi sha naging mama's boy..

super galeng nya, dahil naayos nya ang certificates nya from 2 different churches in a matter of 3 hours..partida pa kasi hinanap pa yung record nya dahil maling year ang nabigay nya..at least masesettle na namen yung requirements sa church..

ang dame nyang kwento..it all sums up na ayaw nyang magraise ng family at tumira ng matagal sa japan..sabi nya, nakakaloko dun..ang lungkot..siguro nga sanayan lang yun and depende sa mga kasama mo..nagkataong mga hapon talaga kasama nya aside ke francis na boss nya na pinoy..and naawa ako dun kasi naglalakad sha pag naiiwan sha ng bus kasi nag-oovertime sha pag gabi..sus! yun eh sanay na nakakotse..

pero buti na lang pareho kame ng plans ahead..na dito sa pinas mag-establish ng family..besides, we're living comfortably naman here, bakit pa namen pahihirapan ang mga sarili namen na tumira somewhere else na mataas ang cost of living and magrerequire samen na magwork to death just to live NORMALLY?!?

unless as in nakakamatay pakawalan and napakagandang career move yung magtransfer abroad, hindi ko iiwanan ang pilipinas..kahit na sangkaguluhan ang politics dito..hindi dahil sa nationalistic ako..practical lang..and mas ok pag andyan lang mga relatives mo, always ready to help sa mga needs mo..mas ok na naiintindihan mo ang situation sa place na pinagsta-stay-an mo dahil taga-dito ka talaga..

salamat na lang talaga at parehas kame ng outlook sa buhay..

i know someone who's in germany

2005-07-12T16:16:00.000+08:00

kanina kasi, bigla na lang, me nagtanong na if i know someone from germany..hehe..napangiti na lang ako e..kasi he's not someone from germany..nagkataon lang na nandun sha for work..

naalala ko tuloy..na sangkatutak ang diaries ko na forever tungkol sa rants and frustrations ko about him..pero kasi nung time na lipat kame ng lipat ng house, nairita na mom ko sa dame kong documents (bounded with locks dahil diaries nga sila) na binibitbit namen every now and then tapos hahanapan ng space na pagtataguan nila..kaya one time, naggeneral cleaning sha ng wala ko..and tinapon nya lahat leaving the cabinet empty with a note na tandang-tanda ko pa rin ang laman --- "get mad, those were only taking spaces when they don't matter to you anymore"..

kung sa ordinaryong araw siguro, matatawa ako sa mommy ko..bakit hindi eh paingles ingles pa, magnonote lang..haha! pero shempre mega irita talaga dahil diaries ko yun no!?!? nung mga panahong hindi pa uso ang blog and for-my-eyes-only pa lang ang aking thoughts, those were the only witnesses sa aking mga kabaduyan..haha!

sometimes when you're falling like big time on someone kala mo yun na nga..as in sha na..as in your whole world will never be the same kapag hindi sha makakasama mo for the rest of your life..kala mo ganun kasi you've built your whole life around him..akala mo, hindi mo kayang maging happy with anybody else..kasi minsan nakakagi-guilty..in the sense na pinaniwala mo na sarili mo na you're in love with him..

pero maraming taong hopeless romantic lang talaga..katulad ko..haha! kaya each time i'm feeling indifferent towards someone, big deal na yun..

6 years of my life that my future looked different..with him..

ngayon, i'm about to get married..with someone i've always wished him to be..

and i know he's happy for me..no regrets whatsoever sa decisions na ginawa namen in the past..pag di talaga kayo, hindi kayo, no matter how much you tried na baguhin yun..

tuesday around lunch time

2005-07-11T10:07:00.000+08:00

hay naku sa wakas! less than 24 hours and lexel will be here! namiss ko talaga yung mokong na yun!

IS bulok!

2005-07-04T17:23:00.000+08:00

nakakainis lang..i have been worrying like hell lately dahil wala akong narereceive na mails from lexel other than the 1st one he sent me na a week ago pa..halos tadtarin ko ang mail nya asking how he is..hindi naman kasi sha pwedeng maging super busy dun para hindi magkaron ng time to email me..sus! yun pa! eh di lagot sha sakin!?! and shempre, ako ang nag-aayos ng wedding preps namen dito, sabi nya kelangan ko sha i-update and of course hingin ang opinion nya about the price and all..inis na inis na talaga ko when after sending one bragging mails, this message came in...

Hi honey,
D mo ba narereceive email ko??? Bkit d ka nagrereply??? :-) sana ma receive mo
to....
Love,
Lexel

Ganun? So hindi namen nababasa ang mga mails ng isa't isa?! ano bang kabulukan ng mail ng KRAFT?!? kainis..sobra..papano ko malalaman kung kelan sha uuwi? papano ko sha masusundo? sus! nakakainis talaga..as in i bragged IS about it and wala naman silang alam gawin..

Ang nakakainis kasi, you're missing that person so much..physically absent na nga eh, bakit naman pati super limited na communication link eh hassle pa?!

unfinished business

2005-06-27T19:06:00.000+08:00

lexel left for japan this saturday..and i must admit, super arte ko..nagkaron kame ng isang petty misunderstanding friday night and that ruined everything..i supposed to be staying on their house early morning of saturday and shempre hatid sha sa airport together with his sisters, pero dahil nga sa petty misunderstanding eh ayun, umiral ang pride..

he left without me kissing him goodbye..hehe..good thing he'll be back soon..and we've patched things up 2 hours before his flight (napakabait ng aking magiging esposo, kahit ako ang maarte, he always fix the mess)..

pero i've realized na super ang daming naiwang hanging dahil hindi nga kame nagkita before he left. nakakainis kasi hindi nya pa nabigay yung full names ng principal sponsors sa part nya..hindi nya pa na-ask ang mga friends nya about being part of the entourage, pati yung mga nephews nya..tapos hindi nya pa napirmahan yung authorization letter para makuha ko yung cert of singleness nya! hay!

..japan..

2005-06-09T15:55:00.000+08:00

lexel is scheduled to go to japan by 2nd week of this month..actually thank God at mejo namove..ng one week lang..haay..pero nakakalungkot pa rin..kasi two weeks sha dun..

ewan ko..andito pa nga yun, i can feel the saddness coming..

speaking of japan, i'm happy for carlo..kasi he'll be flying off to japan for p&g..finally, dream career come true ka na dude! sana magkita kayo ni lexel dun..hehe..possible kaya yun?

bridesmaids

2005-06-02T18:07:00.000+08:00

eunice is coming home! for my wedding! yehey! mabubuo ulet ang tkm! the last time she's here, hindi ako nakasama dahil me celebration ang cadets with some managers. sayang, nag-intercon pa naman sila..hehe..libre ni eunice!

and si pia e mejo daring na ata..she's inlove with the sleeveless dress na me malaruffles..hehe! jacqui is happy with the motif because it brings out her pretty tan (sus! ano nga bang tawag ni jopol dati dun? haha!)..dionne has some religion constraints pagdating sa design ng dress (sayang ang pagkainlove ni pia sa sleeveless)..amor doesn't like the tube for the reason na hindi ko pwedeng sabihin dito dahil babatukan ako nun!

i'm looking forward to seeing us together that day..super namimiss ko na sila..and siguro, to give some sort of background sa mga bumabasa ng blog ko na hindi alam kung bakit (mga co-cadets ko, para sa inyo to), eto ang maikling story..

got lexel as my bf summer of 2003..at first i was able to manage time with him and with my friends..then i started including him in every gig that i have..so wala ng privacy sa iba kong gimmick with my friends..minsan kahit acad related ay nagmamadali ako pag andyan na ang sundo ko (oo, hindi lang ako atat - ako'y atat na atat..hehe)..that somewhat brought friction and then tension na dumating yung point na mejo off na yung relationship ko with my friends dahil i refuse to go out with them na hindi kasama si lexel..not that lexel disapproves, plainly i don't want to be somewhere not with him...simple..ganun..

sa mga co-cadets ko, hindi na bago yun kasi they've come to know me na me bf so alam na nilang lagi ko talagang kasama si lexel..pero shempre iba yung case ko with my berks..and super namimiss ko na talaga sila..sa tkm kasi, ako lang me bf so far so awkward talagang lagi kong kasama si enecio tapos mushy-mushy pa kame..haha!

in time, alam ko, when all of us are in a settled relationship, babalik lahat sa dati..nagkataong nauna lang ako..and nagkataong abnormal ako with lexel..pero i do hope they find someone as good as lexel in the near future..

him..me..us

2005-06-02T17:51:00.000+08:00

hay naku..recently, lexel is doing extreme overtime..as in lagi..as in hindi na nakakapunta sa house para magdinner dahil almost 9pm na ata umaalis dun..at ako naman eh super stressed out at hindi na sha mahihintay ng 10pm sa sobrang kaantukan..

and hindi ko alam..if these are of normal days, na hindi ako magagalit or maiirita or aawayin sha..hehe..dahil ako nga, as everybody knows, ay isang spoiled brat..pero ngayon, pag nagtext ako asking kung uwi sha ng maaga tapos sinabi nyang "hindi e, OT ulet ako", parang wala lang, OT sha..hehe..sus!

lexel is again arranging his papers for japan. he's leaving this 15th. he'll be spending two weeks there..tapos puro OT sha ngayon..and shempre kung merong times na nakakadalaw pa nga sha sa bahay, super pagod naman nya na nakakaawa lang na pagstay-in sha ng matagal dahil dapat magpahinga na sha..kaya siguro hindi din ako nagagalit..

or dahil alam ko he's doing that for the pride..that everything we'll spend for this wedding eh galing sa savings..savings nya..though napakadaling humingi ng help sa daddy nya..and kaproud lang na super responsible nya..

and kung sinumang magsasabi na we might miss a lot in this life for marrying at an early stage, bahala sila sa buhay nila..basta kame, alam namen na we're more than ready..what is the more approppriate time to get married other than having found someone you can't live without?

and in this world, walang pakialaman e..kanya-kanyang kaligayahan..

everything that i am is in green

2005-05-16T18:11:00.000+08:00

A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her character.

A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules. She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong.

She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will only see a cute woman. Every things she does will look good, and she has all the woman's trick you can think of. She can manipulate men without they knowing it.

If you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you, then you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going to say.. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling.

She will constantly show you that she loves freedom.. If she has freedom, she will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good looking , strong and healthy man especially if she start to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a degree or a good career.

She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there are no "fond of", or "like" for her. Love has no "may be", or "perhaps". If she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has good quality as much as her bad tempered.

Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress.

She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper of the shrew.

If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it. If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If you are nice to hear, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman.

She likes to make and spent money. She likes to have fame and reputations, and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too proud and will not accept status of being "Poor". She loves to have face, so if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she can not stand a feeling of being a "Nobody".

If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that you have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes early.

saturday with the vet(s)..

2005-05-16T11:06:00.000+08:00

last saturday lexel and i have alfie checked because his shots were due. instead of going out-of-town with friend, sa vicinity ng BF kame nagpunta..

the night before, we've asked jing kung san sha nagpapacheck ng puppies niya. since ngayon lang kame nag-aalaga, malamang wala kameng vet diba? sabi nya sa BF sa me lopez. PET MOBILE. We've searched it, wala kameng nakita..

so ang kinahantungan, ST JOSEPH.

Ang aura ng clinic, parang ok naman though mejo dark. Pinapasok kame sa isang room. Me dalawang guy. Isang humahawak ke alfie, isang doctor daw.

Bad Doc: Anong issue sa puppy?
Ihyne: We want him dewormed. his shots are due according to his previous owner.
Bad Doc: Kelan mo sha nabili?
Ihyne : Nung Monday lang.

So the Bad Doc make a lot of hawak-hawak sa body ni alfie. My pup is quiet. They weighed him. 2 kgs.

Bad Doc: Do you have the list of shots he had?
Ihyne: Yes (sabay abot ng list)

Binasa-basa ni Bad Doc. Then he stood up, lumapit sa table where alfie is. Hinawak-hawak ulet.

Bad Doc: Ehem. Actually, you're puppy has a splin infection. He probably got it from his mom, who, siguro, eh merong blood parasite. Usually, maliit lang ang splin pero sa case sa aso mo, nagwrap around na sha sa stomach nya. Kelangan natin shang gamutin. If hindi makuha sa gamot, he needs to undergo an operation just to remove the infection. If not, magkakaroon sha ng series of anemia that will cause his death.

Ihyne: Pero nakukuha naman sa gamot yun? Me mga cases na bang nakuha sa gamot and hindi na nag-undergo ng operations?

Bad Doc: Meron. Kaya nga imedicate muna natin. Let's see kung makukuha sa antibiotics. Tapos yung shots na binigay sa kanya before is immunosuppressant.

Ihyne: What?

Bad Doc: Immunosuppresant. Drug na sinusuppress ang immune system.

Ihyne: Of course I know what immunosuppressant is. My question was, bakit naman sha bibigyan ng immunosuppresant ng previous vet nya?

Bad Doc: Aba, ewan ko, kayo ang bumili sa kanya e. Basta, para maayos natin ang sakit ng aso, painumin mo sha nito.

Sinulat nya sa prescription : Vibravet (antibiotics), Steriods (para mawala ang inflammation ng splin), Ferrous Sulfate (para hindi maging anemic), LC-Vit (vitamins).

Bad Doc: So ano bibilin mo na ba gamot? Kawawa naman yung puppy mo.

Ihyne: Sige. Magkano ba?

Bad Doc: Php 1,000 kasama na professional fee. Next week, ibalik nyo para matingnan kung me development.

Ihyne: Ok.

Lumabas kame ni Lexel ng clinic.

Ihyne: Shame me sakit pa yung nakuha nating aso, ang malas! Baka mahal ang operation?

Lexel : Sigurado ba shang me sakit talaga si alfie?

Ihyne: Ano ka ba, doctor yun no?

Lexel : Doctor nga ba talaga? Baka ginogoyo lang tayo nun. Hingi tayo ng 2nd opinion.

Ihyne: Pag sinabi nyang kelangan operahan si Lexel, then hihingi tayo ng 2nd opinion.

Lexel : So papainumin mo na ng mga gamot na yan? Alam mo ba yung steriods, pampahina ng immune system yun. Usually, pag iniinum yun, me antibiotics na kasama.

Ihyne : Me antibiotics naman e.

Lexel : Duda pa rin ako.

So I gave in. We went to GOOD SHEPHERDS. Recommended ng friend ni Winnette. Dun din naconfine si Pepper before.

Good Doc: Anong problem ng puppy?
Ihyne: Hingi lang po kame ng 2nd opinion. (kwento ng mga sinabi nung Bad Doc).
Good Doc: Did he did some blood tests?
Ihyne: Nope
Good Doc: Fecal tests?
Ihyne: Nope
Good Doc: Pano sha nag-come up with an analysis na splin infection yun? Ang dogs pag me sakit, hindi kumakain, hindi naglalaro. Yung gum ng ill is white, hindi tulad nito na pinkish. Splin infection occurs at adult dogs.

Sus buti na lang. Yun tuloy nabili pa namen ng stuffs nya si alfie.

And we're planning to buy a female. Soon..

meet alfie

2005-05-12T08:36:00.000+08:00

imagine how happy we are..every night super naaaliw talaga kame..last night, dahil alfie peed and he sat on it dahil guilty sha and ayaw nya mapagalitan ni mommy, we had an "emergency bath".

unlike so many puppies na super nangingig pag pinaliliguan, super proud ako to say na napakabait ni alfie. and it seems na nag-eenjoy sha!

and my good little pup knows how to fetch! lexel plans on buying him something na boney for fetching na nakakafreshen daw ng breath ng aso..i don't know where he'll buy it..

can't get over it!

2005-05-09T13:35:00.000+08:00

got to get this pup!

whatever it takes, bibilhin na namen!!

it has the right color combi that i like.

lexel gave in, but we really need to make sure that the shih tzu will be fine once it's here na..

lamesa at aso

2005-05-08T19:43:00.000+08:00

ako talaga ay spoiled..lexel already brought me something for our anniversary and i've used it a number of times already. dapat ang iniisip na namen is kung anong gift ko for him..i've asked him hundreds of questions para lang mafigure out namen kung anong gusto nya and it turned out na billard table yun! my gosh! ok lang ba sha? sangkamahalan kaya nun! kahit hatian pa nya ko (which he usually does pag mahal ang gift ko for him, hehe) eh napakamahal talaga nun..sus! buti na lang walang paglalagyan ng 7x4 ft na table na yun..at nakumbinsi ko na wag na lang yun..

mejo tampuhan kame nga nung friday dahil sa dinner with the "bosses"..but mabait pa rin sha to fetch me sa greenbelt dahil concerned daw sha sa aking safety. sus! if i know, he's making sure lang na i won't go any place other than the dinner location..ang tampuhan ng friday ay umabot ng sabado (kahit na nga ba we made sure na we didn't sleep na masama ang loob namen sa isa't isa nung biyernes). he went home almost 10am pero hindi na sha bumalik later in the afternoon or kahit man lang magdinner sa house.

kanina, yun, pag dating nya sa house, iba ang aura ng loko..ewan ko, pero ang bait. Me dala shang classified ads about shih tzu..and sabi nya, 15 thou LANG daw.. we usually see it priced 18 thou kasi sa mall. So me hint na ibibili nya ko! nakalimutan ko ang tampo ko at tuluyan na akong naexcite! hehe! shih tzu yun no! ang tagal kong inasam.

we've contacted a lot of people about a pup, surfed the net. then we realized na walang magbabantay. house nila eh super daming dogs. samen, unfortunately, wala kameng maid and pag weekdays eh walang tao sa house, mamamatay ang aso to think na 15 thou yun!

so yun, parang naunshami ang aming mga pangarap..

and i'm starting to realize na baka kaya he brought about buying a shih tzu eh para iparealize sakin yung disappointment na nafeel nya about not buying the billard table..hehe..naku talaga yun, nakakaasar!

lunch sa dates cafe

2005-05-06T13:29:00.000+08:00

me-ann and i had our lunch today with sir bot and sir nef..and as always, puros katatawanan..nagkwento sila tungkol sa kabagalan ni orland, na super extreme sa boss nyang si alex..ilang beses ginaya ni sir nef, hehe! and sobrang pinuri din nila si sir raj, na magaling daw na supervisor, panglinya..na pag tumayo na daw sa gitna ng production, lahat daw ng operators, sumusubsob sa trabaho..they've mention na one time me casual na operator na babae ang nagkacrush ke sir raj! yun! patok talaga yun..hehe!

wala, masaya. kahit hindi kame sa pancake house kasama ng mga cadets. akala kasi namen ni me-ann, iniwan kame. pero buti na lang, kasi subsidized naman ang kinain namen..

nakakatawa lang kasi mejo awkward..sa dates cafe kame naglunch, tapos 4 lang kame..wala lang..para sakin, ang awkward..though daddy na nga namen silang matuturing! hehe!

sabi ni tp last na daw to

2005-05-04T16:56:00.000+08:00

..kaya ipopost ko na dito..pero i hope hindi pa 'to last..

kame ata ni lexel eh camera shy or too engaged sa paglamon?!? hehe! ang laki ng mukha ni TP dito (shempre, sha me hawak ng camera eh)..and look at me-ann, mejo pacute (para daw sabihin naten na gurlush sha, hindi tibo! hehe!)

kitang kita dito ang excitement ni carlo sa p&g..imagine, wala pa sa japan eh naniningkit na!! ewan ko kung observant lang ako pero pansinin nyo si jen, me pinipigil na food sa mouth nya! hehe! pero in fairness hindi mukhang gutom na hayok sa picture kaya kahit full ang mouth eh mega pose sa camera..si kelly, pinakita ang paiging demotivated..alam na namen, alam na alam..hehe..naka-all black pa yan, take note!

nakow ang pagkaobssessed ni tp sa scary mode ng camera nya..hassle, mukha tuloy akong bampira!! hmp!

turuan, paluan, takutan

2005-05-04T08:11:00.000+08:00

since asa house nga namen si ma-anne, ang aking pinsan, mom is teaching her spellings of all basic colors..and naspe-spell nya orally pero pag pinasusulat na sa kanya, she's finding a hard time!

mejo naaawa na nga kame ni lexel sa kid kasi umiiyak na..tinatatakot kasi ng mom ko na kung ilan ang mali nya, ganung kadami ang palo nya! hehe! she did it when we were young kaya alam kong tototohanin nya yun..hindi pa yun ang nagscare talaga ng super dun sa kid, mom threatened her na dadalin sha sa dark room kapag hindi nya naspell right.

naawa kame sa kid, natatawa kame sa mom ko..kasi nanggagalaiti sha..paulit ulit nyang sinasabi "it's not for me, it's for your own good! spell violet out loud ten times, count by yourself"..hahaha!

ilang beses ko ng nilabas, i told the kid na ispell nya ng mejo mahina habang sinusulat nya..pero habang nakikita nya ko, lalong umiiyak..ako na napapagalitan ng nanay ko dahil nakakakuha daw ng kakampi yung kid..sus!

sabi ko ke lexel, hinding hindi ko patuturuan sa nanay ko ang magiging kid ko! sabi nya, sa sobrang kabusy-han ko sa work, malamang wala ako mashadong time para magturo, unless magresign ako sa trabaho and be one plain-housewife! duh! what a bore! ayoko nun..

and he thinks na mom teaches well..sus! nadidiscipline daw ang bata..sus! eh tinatakot ng mom ko e! hehe! pero come to think of it, hindi naman ako lumaking bobo..at least maayos na school naman ang ponasukan ko and nakagraduate ako on time (naks!) and wala naman akong inferiority complex khit tinakot takot ako ng mom ko! hehe!

wala lang

2005-05-03T10:15:00.000+08:00

at last meron na ring bf ang aking best bud!!

nakow, jayjay, sana ay magpakabait ka ng sobra! ng sobra ha! at wag mong aawayin si fatima..sha eh napakaiyakin, duper sensitive and matampuhin..

fats, good luck! start saving up!

emmie, pwede pakisabihan si fats regarding sa alone-rooms naten sa outing..akala yata eh nagbibiro ako..hehe..

bob, hindi mo pa alam..loser!

jerome, hala ka, kaw na lang walang SO..hehe..kaw kasi, sama mo..

mio, ikaw rin pala! nakow, malamang hindi na kayo sumama sa outing ni geronimo..pero itutuloy pa rin namen yun

re: kainitan

2005-05-01T10:23:00.000+08:00

after DMJ, the kid decided she wants to eat at jollibee..so pinagbigyan namen..naisip na rin namen to "buy an aircon" kaya sa sm bic na kame nagpunta..

but sus! sa pag-ikot namen, ayaw na ng nobyo ko ng aircon kasi hindi sha makakapagwithdraw ng ganung kalaki sa atam dahil 4thou ang limit..sus! mahal lang kaya ayaw!

kaya nauwi kame sa pagbili ng duper big na fan..sus!

ok na din..salamat na din..

DMJ

2005-05-01T10:13:00.000+08:00

mom brought home last friday my cousin ma-ann..para turuan dahil she'll be taking her entrance exam for kindergarten..kaso ewan ko ba at ang ginawang reason para madala dito ang kid eh isasama ko daw magswimming..sus!

so nung napagod ang kid kakasulat, she's asking me what time will her kuya lexel be returning to pick us up daw..kasi daw, 9:30am na umalis ang kuya nya and it's 11:00 na, he's still not here..kasi daw dapat magswimming kame ngayon..nung sinabi kong lexel will not be coming back kasi he needs to take a rest, aba, ngumawa ang kiddo!! as mega nagwala!! toochax!

so kelangan kong guluhin si lexel and isama yun sa "swimming"..without plans, we went straight sa DMJ (oo tp, pagwanan mo na!)..kasi ayaw na magdrive somewhere na malayo ni lexel..so dun na lang..we paid Php 650 for entrance + room for 3 hours..

pag dating sa pool sabi ni spoiled kid "ngek, ate ang liit na pool!"..sus naghanap pa!

i need to take a dip, dahil shempre hindi ko pwedeng pabayaan ang 5-year-old na makulet alone by herself sa pool..lexel didn't..nanood ng tv lang room..ang corny talaga nun!

payday friday

2005-05-01T09:45:00.000+08:00

sabi ko hindi ako sasama sa gimmick ng cadets last friday..lexel and i talked about it and decided that that friday will be a date-day friday for us, kasi we seldom go so mushy-mushy anymore..we go out, fine..watch movies and spend hours together at home..pero last two weekends kasi were spent with each other's family..

but then, "it may never come again" nga so i decided to ask permission to him and go with the cadets instead. mashado akong ilusyonado to even think na pwede nya akong payagan to be there na ako lang..i know susunod sha..and yun nga..

sagwa ng food sa banana leaf curry house..kaya pala walang tao dun..kainis kasi sa d' angelo and gerry's, sobrang dameng tao as in waiting..so sa aming search eh dinala kame sa arabian cuisine na yun!! sus! ambaho ng food to the extent na kelangan nameng magtoothbrush ni enecio!! hehehe! pero masaya pa rin naman..

then thanks nga pala ke carlo dude sa paglilibre ng dessert na dapat eh si TP dahil pumasa sha sa board exam and nagmarch sha for graduation..kaso si TP ay tigasin..hindi kung hindi..sa outing kung sa outing..tutal si carlo naman si on the way for P&G..yayayaman pa sha lalo..whehehe! so sige na nga! ipagdadasal talaga kita carlo dahil dream job mo naman talaga ang r&d..

actually, we're still on banana leaf eh duper excited na ang aking SO na magpunta sa itallanis to meet our high school friends..his high school friends lang pala, my high school acquiantances lang..hehe..halos sabihin na nya sakin na wag na kameng sumama sa libre ni carlo..pero he knows me better than anyone else.."ako ang batas!"..

at ayoko talaga as in na pumunta pa dun sa itallanis..kasi hindi ko naman mashadong close yung mga andun..though i've been friends with joven, karen, ian, jopes, and yampol, andun pa rin yung mga girls na i'm not comfortable with -- kathleen, isa and badette. pero shempre ako eh sort-of-mabuting gf din naman kaya pinagbigyan ko ang aking masunurin-din-namang bf.

but as expected, hindi ako mashadong nag-enjoy..though ian, jopes and yamps make me really feel comfortable..isa and kath din naman exerted effort to make some sort of conversations..

siguro, mas gusto ko pa nga yung crowd right after nung dinner, when puros barkada na lang ni lexel ang natira..though super pagod na rin talaga ako, i know lexel to be a billards' addict, so once na niyaya na yun, hindi yun tatanggi..and jopes just asked him..

hay, dun pa sa coronado, andun si warren something, napapanood daw yun sa tv..pakialam ko..hehehe..ayoko lang dahil nakatayo kame tapos smoking area pa yun..and as kelly said na may pagka "bratinella" ako, umiral ang aking tantrums at mejo walk out ako dahil pagod na ko eh nakatayo pa kame tapos ako eh me hika tapos ang usok pa dun..inisip ko tuloy, buti na lang hindi immature ang bf ko, dahil just in case, ang walk out ko na yun e sa away matutuloy..i sort of figured out na baka next time e hindi na nya ako isama sa gig ng barkada nya kasi nag-inarte ako that night..hehe..mala-cocoi ni jing..kaya nag-apologize ako..and for the record, isa yun sa mga few instances na nagsorry ako sa kanya..hehe..natakot lang talaga ako..

so the "barkada" decided to transfer some place else para magbillards..and yampos started telling me stories about his previous dates, kung bakit hanggang ngayon e wala pa shang gf..hehe..and yung mga stories ni ian about his adventures! kainis! pero nakakatuwa..

i don't know..pero super thankful lang talaga ako na hindi distorted ang perspective ni lexel about life and relationships..buti na lang parehas kame ng view..as he said "madami kang pwedeng makitang physically attractive, pero yung someone who shares with you the same idea about life ahead, napakahirap nun"..

yeah, tama nga..

and we ended up sleeping sa mainit ko pa ring room dahil hindi kame nakabili ng aircon..

another grrrr....

2005-04-29T14:51:00.000+08:00

i hate making mock up samples! it sucks! and it's not part of my job!

grrr..

2005-04-29T11:53:00.000+08:00

super kainitan!!!!!

nakakainis!!

walang aircon sa room ko, sa room lang ng nanay ko..naawa na ko ke lexel, dahil sweaty boy yun..at least di sha mabaho..whehehe..

i'm insisting he'll buy me an aircon..sha din naman makikinabang..hope and pray he'll give in!

pantasha

2005-04-29T11:25:00.000+08:00

ewan ko, pero super gusto talagang mag-swimming..

hindi lang out-of-town like the previous suggestions ni lexel..i refuse to do any other thing than to dip myself down the water..pero ayokong maging negra..hehe, excuse my words pero ayokong matulad ke jing (officemate ko), na tinutukso ng kirara here..well, hindi naman ako maitim right now kahit 2 full weekends na kong dip ng dip plus yung munting bee pa nameng cadets..pero hindi pa rin ako over with..

so yun..sana lang talaga he'll give in..sweldo nya kahapon..sus!

hanggang kelan?

2005-04-22T18:04:00.000+08:00

mamimiss ko ang mga co-cadets ko..it feels comforting to know kasi na no matter what, meron and merong set og people na makakaintindi sa mga nangyayari sa yo sa trabaho -- those people who will share your success and demotivations. hindi na din matatakot na maglunch kasi you know na me kasabay ka..

pero hindi ko naman sila mapipigil if they want some development in their career..sana kasi 7 na lang ang asa advancement planning instead of 5..though kahit 7 pa yun, i doubt kung magstay sila dito..

sayang lang, hindi nautilize at napalabas ang full potential ng mg cadets. sana lahat ng naging boss namen kasing galing ng boss ko..sana inisip nila na super ganda sana ng future ng kraft if kameng 7 ang magiging managers! hehehe! sayang talaga, napabayaan..

masaya pa naman kame..masaya kameng magkakasama..masaya kame to work with line operators..

pero sana, they've given my co-cadets the treatment and training that they deserve..

eh di sana hindi na nila gugustuhin pang umalis..

eh di sana hindi ako nalulungkot..

di ko rin naman masisiguradong magtatagal ako for life dito..

pero as of now, masaya naman ako sa trabaho ko..

nakakalungkot lang talaga..na mababawasan yung stuffs na ilu-look forward ko every morning sa pagpasok sa office..

haaay..

swimming party

2005-04-18T10:27:00.000+08:00

though i'm not sure kung mababasa nyo, eto pa rin, susulat ko pa rin..hope one day, you'll realize how last weekend is special to me..

leanne
- advance! i've never greeted you..hehe..busy ka kasi sa mga friends mo..

tito mar and tita neena
- thanks! (yun lang, hiya pa rin ako e)..but tito mar, salamt sa pagplay ng good songs while we're travelling..first time i've went to hear mass with you and got a little touched when lexel hugged you both..mejo hindi po kasi showy yun sa emotions nya regarding you two..tita neena, kayo daw po ang only masungit sa family nyo according to lexel, but i don't think so..feeling ko nga, sa inyo po mana yun ng pagiging soft-spoken nya..

tito sandy
- sayang hindi ka nakapagswim..

winnette
- nakow, super thank you for making me feel comfortable and giving me that it's-okay smile..sayang hindi nakasama si gammy..belated! yung gift, bibili pa lang ako this week, papabigay ko na lang ke lexel..

patrick
- somehow, having someone i've spent years with other than lexel makes me feel at ease.. and thank you dahil everytime me family gathering, you're there to somewhat lessen the pressure..

ted-ted
- boooola! hehe! super kulet mo, naaalala ko sayo si terence..ang bibo-bibo mong bata and lexel can't help comparing my tantrums to yours (and it makes me feel a bit off because you're barely 2 yrs old)

jed-jed
- nice glasses though you have to wear it this early. super quiet yet inaagaw si ted-ted ng cue stick! hehehe! parang nakita ko na si lexel nung bata in you..

joanne and tisha
- thanks for making me feel like part of the family..sus!

lexel
- salamat sa bikini..whehehe..maganda diba? bilib ako sa pagiging good son mo..pwede ka ng "boy" hahaha! joke lang! love you so much!

Still smiling after 40 km of dirt road

2005-04-13T14:51:00.000+08:00

it feels good to know that he can still have a good smile even when i'm not around..

during the time i'm missing him badly, this is how he's enjoying his gig with his officemates..hehehe..and yes, he's kalbo!

dude, hope you could be happy even when i'm gone..time is running out...

driving

2005-04-12T13:52:00.000+08:00

kaninang naglunch out kame ng mga bossing, usapan about driving..

naisip ko, dati ko pa gusting magdrive e..bakit hindi ako nag-aaral? dahil walang time? mom is pushing me to learn..magpaturo na muna daw ako ke lexel bago ako mag-enroll sa driving school para hindi daw ako mukhang eng-eng sa driving prof ko dahil ako ay madaling magpanic..

ilang beses na rin akong niyaya ng pinsan ko na tuturuan nya ko..but hindi natutuloy..pero hindi dahil sa ayaw ko..

naawa na rin naman ako ke lexel dahil mukha na shang driver..hindi lang driver ko dahil sometimes, pati na rin ng family ko (pag kasama ko lang naman sila)..

so dapat talagang mag-aral na ko..

ang nasabi ko kanina sa mga boss "mag-aaral na nga akong magdrive"..

hirit ni sir bot "sus, bakit ka pa mag-aaral, meron ka na namang driver"..

hay sus!

pero somehow, gusto rin ni lexel yung thought na dependent ako sa kanya pag dating sa isang bagay..

pero mag-aaral pa rin ako..soon..

Everything I need to know, I learned from Noah's Ark..

2005-04-12T10:53:00.000+08:00

ONE: Don't miss the boat.
TWO: Remember that we are all in the same boat.
THREE: Plan ahead. It wasn't raining when Noah built the Ark.
FOUR: Stay fit. When you're 60 years old, someone may ask you to do something really big.
FIVE: Don't listen to critics; just get on with the job that needs to be done.
SIX: Build your future on high ground.
SEVEN: For safety's sake, travel in pairs.
EIGHT: Speed isn't always an advantage. The snails were on board with the cheetahs.
NINE: When you're stressed, float awhile.
TEN: Remember, the Ark was built by amateurs; the Titanic by professionals.
ELEVEN: No matter the storm, when you are with God, there's always a rainbow waiting.

wake up call

2005-04-11T18:02:00.000+08:00

sabi sa profile ko "easily irritated"..oo, dahil ako, pag me nakita akong hindi magandang ugali..naiinis talaga ako..

ako ay madaling maapektuhan..

madalas naiinis din ako sa sarili ko dahil bakit ako naiinis sa nakakairitang attitude ng iba samantalang napakarami ko ding horrible na ugali? at alam kong marami ding naiinis sakin dahil sa mga yun...

and sa ngayon, ewan ko, for a weird thing na bumanga sa pagkatao ko, everytime na naiinis ako, naiisip ko "o bakit ka naiinis dyan?"..nakakaramdam pa rin ako ng inis, but in a split second na maramdaman ko yun, naiisip ko "ano kayang reason bakit naiinis ako sa kinaiinisan ko? ano kayang nangyari sa kanya at nagiging nakakainis sha ngayon sa harap ko?"..and my emotions start to normalize..at nawawala ang inis..

sometimes, nakakalimutan kasi ng tao na initindihin ang mga nangyayari sa buhay ng ibang tao..nagiging selfish..

and masama yun..

90/10 principle..

mas horrible ang pwedeng mangyari if i'll react worse towards a bad event or attitude..

force feed pump

2005-04-11T15:34:00.000+08:00

First time ko magsupervise ng installation..and super nakakaaliw..hehe..daming technical stuffs akong natutunan..and i'm enjoying it really..

Ngayon, engineer na tlga ko..masasabi ko na talaga..at mas magaling ang mga pinoy sa singaporean..hehehe..dahil "they need to think about it" pa when ang mga operators namen (saludo ako sayo, malong!) eh alam na alam na ang gagawin, without reading the manuals!!!

mabuhay! mabuhay ang IMPACT!

can't wait

2005-04-09T15:28:00.000+08:00

thank god lex is coming home..he's gone since wednesday for sagada, company outing nila na hindi ako kasama (mejo masama ang loob, pero what can i do, all boys dun?)..anyway, hindi naman ok ang gagawin nila e, gapang sa cave (which is nakakapagod) and hiking (which is super nakakapagod) and inuman (hindi naman ako tumador e!)...since wednesday, bukas ko pa lang sha ulet makikita..

hay naku, sana talaga bukas na!

3 kinds of people according to vic garcia

2005-04-09T15:15:00.000+08:00

wise
-someone who learns from the mistakes of others

foolish
-someone who learns from his own mistakes

stupid
-someone who doesn't learn at all

anong category mo ngayon?

ako? there are times na wise, most of the time foolish, but i can't deny na stupid din naman ako..

2005-04-07T19:19:00.000+08:00

i'm missing this..i'm missing him so much..

The 90/10 Principle by Stephen Covey

2005-04-06T11:41:00.000+08:00

10% of life is made up of what happens to you. 90% of life is decided
by how you react. We really have no control over
10% of what happens to us.

The other 90% is different.

You determine the other 90%.

You make your own bad day by reacting improperly of things you don't have any control about.

huy

2005-04-01T18:02:00.000+08:00

to someone reading my blog who thought i don't know he's reading it..

hindi ako galit sayo dahil binabasa mo..kaya nga asa net e, para mabasa ng lahat..hindi din ako galit sayo, for what you've done before..wala lang yun..

i don't regret being you friend..tutal matagal na rin kitang nakikita and matagal ka ng nahihiya sakin..sabi mo, you've been on the look out since i was 8..stalker ka! stalker ka! haha! we used to laugh about it..

we used to spend so much time over the phone..patago dahil galit sayo ang buong family ko..dahil loko loko ka..at aminado ka nun..

pero they're right..not na abnoy ka talaga..dapat lang na hindi nila ako pinaligawan sayo..whehehe..

kasi hindi mo alam ang gusto mo..dahil ang dami mong gustong patunayan sa mga kaibigan mo, sa family mo, pati sa sarili mo..

akala mo "nagago" mo ko..pero hindi..hehe..

girl with the blue bag..asan na sha? last na balita ko naaksidente ka and ngayon sabi ni khaye nagbalikan na kayo nung kamukha ni emalyn..good..

i just want you to know na hindi man kita hina-hi-an pag asa pobalacion ako, hindi naman ako galit..siguro hindi talaga tayong pwedeng maging close..pero friends pa rin tayo..

?? what would you do ??

2005-04-01T17:58:00.000+08:00

inutangan ka ng super close friend mo, as in gipit to the max sha. so pinautang mo..after 2 years, sabi nya "wala akong utang sayo, i thought you gave it to me"..

pero kelangan mo na din ng money as in kasi hindi naman pwedeng balato lang yung money pinahiram mo sa kanya kasi super laki..anong gagawin mo kung wala namang written document na signed sha saying me utang sha sayo?

bad guys turn good

2005-04-01T17:44:00.000+08:00

tulad ni dionne, ako ay mahilig sa koreanovela ng channel 7, particularly yung "full house"..kasi hindi sha drama, kasi makulet ang story..

ayoko ke luigi..kahit ganung kasama ang ugali ni justin, sa kanya ako forever..sha yung kind of guy na napakaspoiled, napakaarrogant, napakanakakainis to the point na nakakainlove sha hindi dahil sa cute sha (dahil hindi naman) or dahil sexy sha (dahil hindi rin though broad ang shoulders nya) kasi dahil complex ang personality nya..kasi hindi nya mapagconnect ang mind and heart nya kaya super comedy tuloy ng mga moves nya..

ngayon, si meanne eh me sound track ng meteor garden kaya naalala ko din si dao..na guylet na me weirdong personality din at mahilig manakit physically ng girlet nya..

naalala ko tuloy na lex and i go watch meteor sa boarding house nila jackie and that started it all..and ngayon, sabay pa rin nameng pinanonood ang full house at pinapaalala nya sakin pag hindi nalilipat kagad ng mommy sa channel 7 pag 9:00 na..

justin..dao..reminds me of someone not lexel but someone i know very much..pero tulad ng sabi ni jacqui sa blog nya, meron kang mga gusto kaya crush mo..pero when you want to fall in love, ibang ibang ang gusto mo..

that, i believe is super true.

..shivers..

2005-04-01T17:23:00.000+08:00

i've read something that makes me feel a bit lucky, realize that my problems aren't real problems but tantrums or my refusal to go beyond my usual self or my selfishness..

madalas akong mag-isip and most of the time, hindi happy ang endings ng mga thoughts ko..kaya ako ay mashadong careful..kaya daw ang mga "problems" ko ay napakapetty..or there are times na gumagawa na lang ako ng issue para lang magulo ang mundo ko..

every time i'm inside the church, isang litany lang na paulit-ulit kong sinasabi..

1. i don't want to spend my whole life with someone na hindi ako mahal..hindi ako yung martyr type pero conservative ang view ko pagdating sa marriage..kaya sana lang, wag mambabae ang asawa ko, or wag nya kong bubugbugin.

2.ayokong mabuntis ng wala sa oras..hindi ko naman sinasabi na we're doing "it" na..pero alam kong ngayon, hindi ko pa kayang maging mom kahit super ready na kong maging wife (tutal si lexel ay "tropicalized" - maintenance free).

3. sana healthy ang family ko..ako ay paranoid na tao..nahihirapan akong magfocus kapag may inaalala akong tao at the back of my mind..hindi ko kaya ang amoy ng hospital, feeling ko malapit ng mamamatay kapag may dinadala dun (sus!)

binabasa ko ang isang blog na hindi ko dapat basahin, kasi hindi nya ko kilala..though sha, sort of kilala ko. and i just found myself crying sa isang entry nya na napakahaba..natatakot akong magaya sa kanya..kasi kagaya sha ng mom ko..at hindi nila ako katulad dahil isa akong weakling, i run awy at the first sight of trouble..

putting myself in their shoes, parang napakahirap and iisipin ko ngang "death is my only salvation"..diba, napakaselfish?

i need to grow up..fast..kasi soon, hindi na lang sarili ko iisipin ko..pati si lex (kasi ngayon sha pa ang nag-iisip for me, hindi na mom ko) and yung magiging kids namen..

but God really is good..kasi pinaexperience na niya yung pain sakin nung bata pa ako, nung wala pa akong career or any other to think and feel about..and ngayon, parang i'm getting the better half of existence..sana nga, sana nga..

a blog for lory

2005-03-28T18:08:00.000+08:00

1. yup, tagal na nga kame..2 years this coming may 31..everyday nagkikita, ganun..

2. since naemploy ako sa kraft, lumipat na kame dito sa pque..that is, 4 months na..

question lang ha, ano yung business mo? naging interesado daw ba dahil sa kakabasa ng blog me..anyway, kasi dito sa kraft, sangkatutak ang yumayaya samen (me and lex) na magjoin sa networking..dahil yun daw ang "in" na business..hehe..tignan ko lang kung mapasali nila si lexel..whehehe..

my yahooid is : ihyne .. hope we could chat some time..tagal na nating di nakakapagkwentuhan e..